My life.

Living on a diet of chocolates and cigarettes

I wanna call you again.

I'll drink tea sometimes when its cold, its getting old.

I call you again.

Still too young to fail, too scared to sail away

One of these days

I'll grow old and I'll grow brave and I'll go

One of these days.

Blowing out the candles from my cake

I choke on the smoke as I look around the room

Everybody is wishing for no more mistakes

And all that I can think about is you

Still too young to fail, too scared to sail away

One of these days

I'll grow old and I'll grow brave and I'll go

One of these days

Chocolate and Cigarettes by Angus & Julia Stone

It's true. One of these days I will grow old and brave and go. I really will. Right now I'm scared and afraid that I would fail if I went there. With all my might I would make it not fail, but all my might has never been quite enough. To go there, I would need more then my might. To go there, I would have to take a giant leap of faith and not fall in the process. One of these days though, I will be brave enough and you will see me sailing to where I am supposed to be.

A long, long time ago...

I was able to model for my cousin whenever we felt like it. I really miss those days.

Wakey!Wakey!

This song is one of my favorites at the moment.

The lyrics are so true.

I have thought this many times in my life.

Quote of the week.

"If a guy you like doesn't like punk rock, say fuck him."

Sometimes my friends have great quotes. Sometimes my friends keep me sane. Sometimes my friends just completely know whats up.

Photos by Laurennnn

Perfect.

Everyone always looks forward to Spring Break. People spend thousands on flights, hotels, new swimsuits, fake nails, horrible fake tans and whatever else is necessary for a disease filled break in Florida. I however, am so far from any of this. My spring breaks are never filled with booze, sun and MTV.

I would have to say this Spring Break has been on of the best so far. Although I have done not much of anything, it ranks in the top 3 best spring breaks. It started Saturday with a shopping spree and pedicures with my mother. Mother-Daughter time with us is very rare these days. I am so glad that I have a mom who is also like a best friend. We have so much fun together. I am so happy I have her and could not be more thankful for her.

Monday morning started off with a little jog on the treadmill and then off to pick up one of my favorite people in the world. My little brown eyed, brown haired cutie. I had not hung out with her since January 4th. One would never know that much time had passed between our last time seeing each other. We always pick up right where we left off. That is how I know she is my everything and I would be no where without her. We made fun of ourselves because we bought things from PacSun and spent way too much on MAC makeup. It was all worth it though. We spent half the day drinking drinks, at every stop we made. One of us probably had about 100 ounces of caffeine in us by the end of the night. We then made a stop that was far too long over due. We went to the boys house who once ran to L.A. but is now back in lil Des Moines. Good times were had by all.

We woke up somewhere all too different yet all too familiar. We had our long talks of the future and what life should really be like for the both of us. Driving home at 8:30 in the morning is something I am not used to but it all felt so refreshing. The rest of the day was spent lounging, grocery shopping, making food and talking to trans-atlantic boyfriends. Couldn't have been more perfect.

Wednesday came and went. Lunch with my grandma and chilling with my mom.

Thursday is here and the weather couldn't be more amazing. It is a day for swinging, listening to music far too loud and burning the incense.

It is weird that I have yet been to Pella during this break. The past few years, Lauren and I always make a trip down there. It is kind of nice not going there. :)

Tomorrow = dress shopping for Kenzie's wedding, Ice cream from Jersey Freeze, and the boy coming to see me.

Perfect Spring Break this year? I would say so.

March 4th, 2010

This is who I saw this weekend.
I had not been to an amazing show in quite sometime. Michael Franti was amazing. So much energy and so loving. John Mayer blew my mind. Such a talented guy. He is one of the best artists that I have seen live, ever. There are only a handful of bands that sound just as they do on the album, meaning they have raw talent. John is definitely one of those select few.

-Neither of these videos were filmed from me because I was a good girl and obeyed the rules and didn't bring my camera. Wish I would have though because they didn't care. Both of them however are from the show I attended.

8 Total

I am kind of a big Apolo Ohno fan.
He's on Jay Leno tonight. Pretty excited!

Lacking

On the posts.
I have nothing to write about. No, actually I have a ton to write about. Just nothing I want any of you to actually read. Because well, it might be about you. Or maybe because I just don't want you to know about it.
Either way, I hope to starting writing and posting more again soooooon.

2 weeks.

Sometimes I wish my best friend didn't live three hours from me.
I want to talk wedding and boys with her.
I want to play with her dog.
I want to sit for an hour and a half just to straighten her hair.
I want to drive around town eating ice cream and talking.
I miss her greatly.

I get to see her in 2 weeks though. Haven't seen her since Christmas. I can not wait!!!

Golden

1st run = 46.8/50
2nd run = 48.4/50

New Albums

I want:

Local Natives - Gorilla Manor
Field Music - Field Music
Adam Green - Minor Love
Shearwater - The Golden Archipelago

For Real?

I am making an entire new post for this.

Blogspot video works for about 45 minutes then stops.
What the fuck?
For real?

Through the Years

I was bored and this was the result.



Music=Bright Eyes: Easy/Lucky/Free

We were the kids.

It is 2006 and we are standing inside four walls that we called home almost every weekend. We were the Newton kids that dominated The House of Bricks. Kids knew to move out of the way when we made our way to the stage. We were the kids smoking our cigarettes as if we were the coolest people to ever walk the Earth. We were the kids that tried to meet every band after their sets. We were the kids that used quarters from our 'cigarette and booze' fund to pay for t-shirts to help support our favorite bands. We were the kids that knew all the words to every song to every band we ever went to watch. We were the scene before scene became a hideous way of dressing.

It is 2006 and we are the kids that think we are unstoppable. We are the kids that would pull into the park and drink a few beers. We would never get caught, it couldn't happen to us, and it never did. We were the kids that got drunk and made out with each other. Best friends for life, or at least a year and a half. We were the kids that where ever one was, the rest of us were soon to follow suit. We were the kids at school that people didn't know what to think of. We were friendly but no one gave us the time of the day because we were the kids who didn't go out for sports.

It is 2006 and we were the kids that didn't let a little bit of trouble keep us separated. We were the kids whose parents told us to stop hanging out with each other because we were all bad news. We were the kids who knew our friendship was more important. We were the kids who never judged. We were the kids who had friendships that many people wish they had. We were the kids who said shit about each other, to their faces, not behind their backs. We were the kids who wanted to live forever, doing just what we were doing.

It is 2010 and most of us are no longer what we were. A few are still in the same place as we were four amazingly long years ago. Then, there are the few who moved on with their lives. There are also the few who can't seem to get their life together. We are the kids that have became acquaintances with a polite 'Hello' if seen in the same public place. We are the kids who talk shit about each other behind their backs. We are the kids we hated.

We are the kids that let life get in the way of great friendships.

Feb. 8, 2010

Sometimes I feel as if I do not know you anymore. Others have taken my place in your life, or so it seems. There are days I feel as if I should try to change it or bring it up. Then there are the days that I want to wait to see if you realize it. I don't think you will though. It is okay though, I am used to it.

Thanks a lot Lauren.

I should be doing more productive things with my life rather then this.



Do you think you are pregnant?
I sure hope I'm not.

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
Autumn, for sure.

You have to get a piercing, what do you get?
Something on my ear probably. I am done with facial piercings.

You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
I would get a really cool middle upper back piece.

What are you wearing?
Jeans, tank top, sweatshirt.

Do you miss anyone?
That I do.

When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
Yesterday.

Plans for tomorrow?
School.

Is anything wrong?
Nope.

Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
I have a very good one.

Are your friends taller than you?
JD and Erin. I am very tall.

What were you doing this morning at 5:30?
Sleeping.

Do you like the ocean?
Very much so.

Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
I love both.

How many windows are open on your computer?
One window, three tabs.

Texted who last?
JD.

Was the first person you talked to today male or female?
Female, my mom.

What woke you up this morning?
Jordain showering.

Do you know anyone named Matt?
I know too many people named Matt.

When was the last time you talked to a sibling?
Oh boy, probably a good two or three weeks ago.

Is your hair curly or straight?
Today it is straight.

What are you doing today?
I am going to do some homework and thats about it.

What jewelery are you currently wearing?
My rings and all my piercings.

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
That I could, and plan on doing.

Have you ever in any way, been betrayed by someone you trust?
Too many times to count.

How late did you stay up last night and why?
11?

Who is in your inbox?
People can't be in my inbox.

Are you picky about who you give your number to?
I am these days, not so much in the past.

What do you prefer: McDonalds or Burger King?
Neither, they both make me want to throw up just thinking about them.

Would you rather go to Greece or Hawaii?
Greece.

Did you have a good birthday this year?
It was decent. Rachel and I had some fun.

How old is the last person you kissed on the lips?
19.

What color shirt were you wearing when you had your last kiss?
Uh, a grey sweatshirt.

Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?
Kind of. Any of my friends would be cool.

Who was the last person you had a face to face conversation with?
Jordain and Sam.

What's under your bed?
Slippers and a backpack.

Did you sleep with anything last night?
My blanket, stuffed Arthur, pillows and all the books on the side of my bed that I dont sleep on.

Are you wearing short shorts?
Negative.

Do you like messages or comments better?
Wow, this is a myspace survey, isn't it?

What are you drinking?
The only thing I ever drink, Water.

Did anything dramatic go down yesterday?
I almost died, seriously. is that dramatic enough for you?

Are you afraid to stay home all alone?
Nope, I actually enjoy it.

Does the person you like, like you back?
That he does.

Did you kiss or hug anyone in the last 48 hours?
Yupp.

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
Nope, 8 am class.

Did you sleep alone last night?
Yes I did.

What color is your shirt?
Didn't we already go over this?

Are you sitting or standing?
Neither, I am lying.

Are you keeping a secret from anyone?
We all have secrets.

Do you have clothes in your closet that are not yours?
Mhmm.

Have you ever been called babe, baby or honey?
Yes, sir.

What are you thinking about?
How I wish there was no snow.
That I could see my best friends.
How I do not want to read the book I have to read.


What's something you cannot wait for?
JOHN MAYER SHOW!!!!!!!!!!

Have you kissed someone with braces?
Nope.

You find out your ex is having a kid with someone you don't like you say?
I really could care less about my ex, so therefore I wouldn't say anything.

Have you ever had a surprise birthday party?
Nope.

Do you sing in the car?
All the tie.

Could you last in a relationship for over a year?
I sure hope so.

Do you have any tattoos?
Only two.

When is the last time you had pizza?
Uh, the last time JD was here probably.

Were you single on your last birthday?
That I was.

When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?
Off, thanks.

Do you swallow gum when your finished?
I have a fear of choking, so no.

Do you a have any candles in your room?
Yeah, three. Even though they are prohibited.

Are you wearing something that someone gave you?
My grandma bought my the sweatshirt. Otherwise I bought everything.

Did you have a good day today?
Eh, it was alright.

Have you kissed the last person you texted?
Yep yep.

Who is one female besides family that knows everything about you?
Kenzie knows almost everything.

Have you ever let someone be your everything?
I always let other people be my everything, that is why I get screwed over so often.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
I am sure someone is.

Survey, yeah?

Is your life falling apart or coming together?
It is coming together for sure.

What was the funniest thing that happened in the last week?
"CHEESE BREAD"...only mom and JD would get it.

How much longer until your birthday?
Eight Months

Do you think somebody's in love with you?
Yes.

What would you do if you woke up naked next to the last person you texted?
Umm with Philip?
That would be a bit weird these days.

Do you drink bottled water?
It is pretty much the only water I drink.

Are you afraid of falling in love?
Negative.

Do you like the beach?
That I do.

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
I have no idea. I might have. I was sooo tired last night.

How much cash do you have on you?
An amount that you don't need to know.

Do you ever apologize first?
Usually not.

Who was the last person you gave a dirty look to?
JD. But seriously, probably Ryan Post because its really funny.

Who was the last person you laughed out loud at?
Rachel.

Do you sleep on your stomach?
Yes.

Have you ever broken someones heart?
Yes, I am sorry.

Are you happy with your life at the the moment?
I am fairly content with it.

Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?
Can you say middle and high school?

Would you ever dye your hair blonde?
This is a stupid question.

If you could move to Africa would you?
Yes, I really think I would.

Ever been kissed under fireworks?
Negative.

Has 2010 been good for you so far?
It actually has.

If you were granted one wish, what would you wish for?
I can't tell you. If I did, I would have to kill you.

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
I sure could.

Last person you had a deep conversation with?
My mom.

Would you prefer a kiss on the cheek or lips?
Either would be fine with me.

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn't do?
Ha, almost every day of my life.


When is the last time you were at an airport?
September of 2007.


Have you ever taken anyone/ anything for granted?
Oh my goodness have I.


Do you remember who you liked in grade seven?
Yepp. Jake, Stephan, Spencer, Taylor, Matt D, Derek, and the list goes on and on.

Do you have any television obsession?
One Tree Hill. Criminal Minds.

Ever get mad at something that happened years ago?
Nah, I always just laugh at things from the past.


Whats the kind of soda you drink most often?
I do not drink POP, thank you very much.


If you took a picture under your bed what would we see?
An empty water bottle, slippers and a backpack.

Do you freak out if a bee/wasp flies near you?
Ha, yes like no other.


Do you say hi first to people or do they have to speak first?
Usually they have to speak first, unless it is a good friend. I am not going to go out of my way to talk to someone I usually dont talk to anyways.


Would you rather have a small dog or a big dog?
Small.

Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you?
7th grade boyfriend.

Finally.

A week of a few good albums and singles:

Jason Boesel - Hustler's Sun
Jason Castro - The Love Uncompromised
Vampire Weekend - Contra
OK GO - The Blue Colour of the Sky
The Watson Twins - Modern Man + Devil In You (Single)
Rogue Wave - Good Morning (The Future) (Single)

Upcoming Shows

Everclear - January 29th
John Mayer - March 4th
Copeland - March 17th



-Know of any other good ones let me know. I am back in full swing of going to good shows!

Another Reason...

I really love Mitchell Davis. He knows whats up.
I am not the only one in the world who loves TOMS Shoes!