Its All Coming Back

The sun is out today.
I pray for no more rain, for tomorrow I get to camp.
Camping is one of my favorite things to do.

My dad and his randomness makes me smile.
Lauren and I sitting around the fire until one or two in the morning.
Going on long walks and climbing the rocks.
Watching people ride their bikes by us a billion times.
Being skanky and no one caring.
Having deer come waaay to close for comfort.
Pigging out and getting fat.
Looking up at the stars
Getting cold and sitting by the fire.
Relaxing.
It all just makes me extremely happy.

I am so excited! I just can't wait!

Do I know you?

Who are you? I can't see the same person I once saw. At one time you used to jump at the chance to hang out with us. You used to want to hang out with us. You would contact me all the time, checking up on me making sure life was treating me good. Now, its like you could care less if I was even alive. You are letting things get to your head. You are NOT some awesome person. Remember where you are from and who is here for you through everything. I am certain some of those people you put over us wont be there forever. They are there just at the moment. Learn to laugh, smile and love again, because of right now, I'm not sure you remember how to do any of that. Fuck, I just don't get it. Hate me, whatever I don't care. When you fall from this high horse you are on, don't expect me to come to your side and help you.

Picking apart the night

A rush of butterflies from one,
Just plain lust from the other.
One looked at me with this look in his eyes that made me melt,
One looked at me through drunken eyes in which I looked back just the same.
One said things that made me smile and want more,
One said things that would make a girl blush and do things she would regret.
Both were fun.
Both were what I wanted.
Both were what I got.
Will I ever think before I do something?
Will I be like this forever?

Having a crush is so much fun. But Lust is great too. Life is just so hard.

Rain Rain Rain on my Mind

It's raining out. I love when it rains. I love thunder and rain, but HATE lightening, it's weird. I wanted really really bad to go walk in the rain but since it was lightening out, I then decided it would be better if I just stayed inside.




Youtube Playlist for the day:
Beat Strings - Before the Light
Apolo Anton Ohno - Samba
Cute is What We Aim For - Risque (acoustic)

Yaaay baby

Apolo won! Im happy. Time for bed.

Dance the night away

So I am obsessed with Dancing with the Stars. I have been since week one when I found out that Apolo Anton Ohno was on the show. I have loved him since he won the gold in the Olympics a few years back. He is just adorable. Anyway, Joey Fatone from *NSYNC and Leila Ali are the other two people still in the competition. All I have to say is Apolo better win, if not Joey better. Got to support my old love too, good old Joey Fat-One.

Graduation and Prom

Graduation Party and Prom Picturessssss

Me Ashley Zach and Lauren at my Graduation Party

My favorite little girl to babysit

Me and my Brother

Jason and I on Prrrrrrrrrrrrrrom

Matt and Lauren, Me and Jason, Kenzie and Chas

Lauren Me and Kenzie

My nightmares would go away

I'm not sure what is wrong with me. I have been in this mood where I don't want to listen to any of 200 cds I own. I have the best music ever, yet nothing seems to appeal to me in the morning. Its so strange. Today I decieded to listen to The Spill Canvas, one of my all time favorite bands. I about cried listening to it while I was getting ready this morning. It took me back to a few years ago when all my friends got along with no drama or hate towards anyone, back to the good days.

How Great

Morrissey. He is pretty much wonderful. Listening to him can always put me in the best mood.

The weather

The weather outside is great. This time of year makes me feel so alive. I know that summer is just around the corner and my days will be full of fun and friends. This weather is perfect for sitting on peoples porches laughing and having fun. It is perfect for sitting out on patios with a fire until 2 in the morning. It is perfect for camping, getting away from everyone and relaxing. Its perfect for road tripping. It is just all around perfect. I couldn't ask for more.

End or Beginning?

On Friday I had my graduation party. It was super fun, but at the same time sad. The time has come to move on with my life. My high school years have ended and a whole new road is layed out in front of me. A new road with many different paths that I may take along the way, a new beginning to my already on going life. It is just so hard to believe that I have gone through 13 years of school and now my day has finally come. All my friends will be beside me as I take the next big step, and we will have so many more great adventures! I can't wait.