Admiration.

I think Craig Owens and I are meant to be best friends. Too bad we have only met once. All the words he writes are exactly what and how I feel about things in my life. I think I am in love with his talented mind.




"Hey, I saw you during our set. I noticed your sweatshirt. I love Modern Life is War. I saw them a few weeks back" - Craig
"Oh, Awesome. Yeah, they are good. Can I get a picture with you?" - Me
"You want a picture with me? How about I get a picture with you?" - Craig

I'm pretty sure this picture was taken sometime in 2006 at The House of Bricks.




Jammin:
Products of Property - Craig Owens ft. Stephen Christian
All Based on a Storyline - Craig Owens

Possibly? Maybe? Eh, Who Knows.

"Maybe all the boys before weren't your type. Maybe you just never gave the right guys the chance"

you know what, I am beginning to think she was right. moms are always right though, aren't they? ha!

Me to a Tee.

Whoever sent this into Post Secret...I am jealous I didn't do it first.

M.O.F.

Monsters of Folk are playing in Omaha on October 28th.
Pleeeeeeeease, someone go with me.
You would be crazy to pass up Conor Oberst, M. Ward, and Jim James all on the stage at the same time.



Jammin to the lovely sounds of:

Say Please - Monsters of Folk
The Sandman, The Breakman, and Me - Monsters of Folk
Dear God - Monsters of Folk

Visions.

You will be the one I miss the most. However, I have yet to see you in over a week. I had visions of my last week in this town as being different than this. I had visions of us living out our last few days of summer together, like old days. I had visions of us squeezing the last bit of sun out of the day before the moon set high. These visions were quite lovely, yet they were only visions. My last week here and I have been in bed before eleven each night texting him until I fall asleep. My last week here and I am living inside my four walls. Summer has come to an end and dear, I did not spend enough time with you this summer. It's our own faults, we had big dreams that faded to quickly. I regret that now. I am wishing I had spent more of my last summer at home with the one who has been my rock, my shoulder to lean on and my other half for almost 21 years now. I am scared to death to leave. I am afraid things will change. I have always felt like this, that is why those visions were so lovely to me. I hate growing up and growing apart. I pray to God this does not happen with us. I pray to God I will always have visions of us. And I pray to God those visions will happen and not stay in my mind as this summers' did.

The Week

Is going too fast and its only Tuesday.

Monday - Did nothing. Didn't even leave the house.

Tuesday - Lunch with Miss Kylie

Wednesday - Centerville to see Kenzie!

Thursday - Hair apt. and Dinner with Grandma and Lauren.

Friday - Nothing.

Saturday - Packing

Sunday - More packing.


Ahh, I'm so stressed. I still need to see Kara, Jon and hopefully Sydney before I leave.

Pretty much...

Some people come into our lives and quickly go.
Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts.
And we are never, ever the same.

- I don't know who said this quote, but it couldn't be more true.

6 1/2 days to go.

In one week, I will not be in town anymore.
Just incase you were all wondering.
Or caring.

Lost!

It was two years ago. We have been through so many ups and downs in our relationship. There are times I hate you and there are times I swear I still think I love you. Lately, I have been thinking about you a lot. Not a day goes by that there isn't something that reminds me of you. I was really strong a month ago. I let her take the picture of you and I down in my car and stuff it in the glove box. Today, I caved and put it back in its place. Today I put the picture with our smiling faces back up so I am reminded of what was. Dear, you have no idea how much I miss you. At times I think it is best we were never anything. Days like today, I think its the worst mistake we ever made, not being together. I believe in fate though. I believe I meet people for a reason. I believe the people I meet and still talk to are there for a reason, a good one. I believe I have been thinking about you a lot for a reason. I'm not sure what that reason is, but I hope it is a good one. Please don't let me down.



Listening to over and over:
Lost! - Coldplay

Listening Station:

Boys Boys Boys - Lady Gaga
Beautiful, Dirty, Rich - Lady Gaga
Rooftops and Invitations - Dashboard Confessional
Cat & Mouse - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Sometime Around Midnight - Airborne Toxic Event
Thanks to You - Copeland
Unusual You - Britney Spears
Lover I Don't Have to Love - Bright Eyes
Ten Women - Conor Oberst and the Mystic Valley Band
Heartbroke - The Good Life
I'm Not For You - Good Old War

Bitter? Probably.

I am so sick of reading about everyones amazing love lives. I don't care about it, really. Stop posting it everywhere and flaunting it. So you're happy, great. The whole world doesn't need to constantly hear about it. The whole world doesn't need to see it either. Posting a million pictures of you and your lover gets old after awhile. Maybe I am just bitter cause I don't have it and most likely never will. (yes, i really think i never will) But really, it gets annoying. So everyone on MySpace, Facebook and Twitter, lets take your love life flaunting down a notch. Thanks.