Mah birthday is in 4 daysss.
Mah party is in 7 daysss.
Super excited!!
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
Let down.
"Please don't let me down." - That was the end of a blog I wrote awhile back.
Well, I was definitely let once again. I am done this time. This was the last straw. I mean it with every fiber of my being. You had your shot and you fucking blew it. You lied. Every word you have been spitting my way the past few months have been nothing but lies. I do not know why I thought this time would be different. Maybe I thought you had grown up, but you haven't. You disappointed me and made me look like an idiot in front of everyone again. "Sarah, he is just going to hurt you again", "Sarah, you know he won't show up. Something will 'come up'". Well everyone, you were right. He didn't show, something 'came up', and I got hurt once again. I gave you second, third and sixtieth chances. I should have stopped at the second one. People like you never change, when will I learn.
I took down that damn picture of us again in my car. I took it down and held it out the window. The air was ripping at it, dying to take it to a far away place so I would never have to look at it again. Instead I jammed it back into the glove box one and final time.
Well, I was definitely let once again. I am done this time. This was the last straw. I mean it with every fiber of my being. You had your shot and you fucking blew it. You lied. Every word you have been spitting my way the past few months have been nothing but lies. I do not know why I thought this time would be different. Maybe I thought you had grown up, but you haven't. You disappointed me and made me look like an idiot in front of everyone again. "Sarah, he is just going to hurt you again", "Sarah, you know he won't show up. Something will 'come up'". Well everyone, you were right. He didn't show, something 'came up', and I got hurt once again. I gave you second, third and sixtieth chances. I should have stopped at the second one. People like you never change, when will I learn.
I took down that damn picture of us again in my car. I took it down and held it out the window. The air was ripping at it, dying to take it to a far away place so I would never have to look at it again. Instead I jammed it back into the glove box one and final time.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Turn up the headphones.
Pictures of You - The Cure
Just Like Heaven - The Cure
Train in Vain (Stand by Me) - The Clash
A Change is Gonna Come - Sam Cooke
Inside Out - Eve 6
Stagger Lee - Modern Life is War
By The Sea - Modern Life is War
Irish Blood, English Heart - Morrissey
Let Me Kiss You - Morrissey
Silhouettes - Swimming with Dolphins
No Place Like London - Johnny Depp
Who Will Save Us Now - Straylight Run
Soon We'll Be Living in the Future - Straylight Run
Stay Awake - Lydia
Perfect Day - Lou Reed
Just Like Heaven - The Cure
Train in Vain (Stand by Me) - The Clash
A Change is Gonna Come - Sam Cooke
Inside Out - Eve 6
Stagger Lee - Modern Life is War
By The Sea - Modern Life is War
Irish Blood, English Heart - Morrissey
Let Me Kiss You - Morrissey
Silhouettes - Swimming with Dolphins
No Place Like London - Johnny Depp
Who Will Save Us Now - Straylight Run
Soon We'll Be Living in the Future - Straylight Run
Stay Awake - Lydia
Perfect Day - Lou Reed
Thursday, September 3, 2009
The Little Things.
What is your worst fear; something you cannot touch? The future. I hate not knowing where I will be 10 years, 5 years, 1 year, 30 minutes from now. I am scared because I don't know who that special someone will be in my life. I am scared because I don't know where my job will take me. I want to know every detail of the future. Time is something else that is a fear, although, I guess that could go along with future to an extent.
What makes you truly happy? (Something that involves no one else.)I am happy when I am sitting in my room, window open, tunes floating from my speakers, incense burning and a book or journal in my hand. I am happy when I am able to watch the sunset during the fall, wearing my grandpa's flannel and listening to frank Sinatra. I am also very happy when I am able to just cruise around in my car blaring tunes and simply just thinking of everything under the sun.
How do you cure your loneliness?Simply put, music. I have a few select bands that I can put on and its like they are medicine. They cure my loneliness and make me realize I'm really not alone at all.
What is the most tiring book you've ever read, but finished?Tough question. I have always been a book worm. I do not think I have ever had a tiring book. I enjoy reading and am always ready to take on a new book or novel. If I had to choose though, I guess Great Expectations during Freshman year of high school.
What are five things you want to do before your time here is done?
1. Go back to Conor's house, and not be terrified of being in his presence. (took Lauren's idea, because its so true)
2. Teach in Africa.
3. Travel the world.
4. Have a family.
5. Make a difference is someones life.
Tell us some things about your best friend.She is the most beautiful, strong, intelligent and amazing person I have ever met. She is sarcastic beyond belief and it is what makes her who she is. She has big dreams and I hope to God she lives them to their fullest. She has been by my side since day one. She is the best friend I didn't even have to look for. Without her, I would not be who I am today. Her heart is the size of the universe. She never judges me, not matter what stupid decision I make. She tells me how it is and never lies to me. She is my other half and I couldn't be more grateful for her.
We've all been jealous of our best friend. Why?
I'm jealous of how tiny she is. I'm jealous that she has found love and I am still searching. She is super smart and I only wish I could be half as smart as she is. I'm jealous that she is still at home close to family while I am far away.
Do you have a dream job?
Managing a band.
Teaching in Africa.
Owning a record store.
just to name a few...
Have you ever thought about why your favorite color is your favorite color?
Turquoise. I suppose it is my favorite because it reminds me of the sky in Iowa on a perfect summer day. It reminds me of the color of the ocean in my favorite vacation spot, Cayman Islands.
Describe your favorite outfit.
Skinny jeans, a v-neck t-shirt, flannel or a sweater, and TOMS shoes.
It's 9 a.m. are you still sleeping? If not, what are you doing?
I hardly ever sleep past nine these days. Today was the second day in over two months I have slept past that. I am usually at school, working, or starting my day off somehow.
Describe three of your most unattractive qualities. (Not physical.)
I pop my pinky knuckles way too much.
I laugh at everything and its always super loud.
I don't forgive people very well.
Describe three of your most attractive qualities. (Not physical.)
I have a huge heart.
I tell things the way they are. (I find that attractive, others don't)
I will help others whenever need be.
Which was easier?
Both were alright to answer.
Is today going to be a good day?
Why yes, I do believe it will be. Got some good news, might hang out with a cool boy, no classes, its sunny AND it's Friday.
What makes you truly happy? (Something that involves no one else.)I am happy when I am sitting in my room, window open, tunes floating from my speakers, incense burning and a book or journal in my hand. I am happy when I am able to watch the sunset during the fall, wearing my grandpa's flannel and listening to frank Sinatra. I am also very happy when I am able to just cruise around in my car blaring tunes and simply just thinking of everything under the sun.
How do you cure your loneliness?Simply put, music. I have a few select bands that I can put on and its like they are medicine. They cure my loneliness and make me realize I'm really not alone at all.
What is the most tiring book you've ever read, but finished?Tough question. I have always been a book worm. I do not think I have ever had a tiring book. I enjoy reading and am always ready to take on a new book or novel. If I had to choose though, I guess Great Expectations during Freshman year of high school.
What are five things you want to do before your time here is done?
1. Go back to Conor's house, and not be terrified of being in his presence. (took Lauren's idea, because its so true)
2. Teach in Africa.
3. Travel the world.
4. Have a family.
5. Make a difference is someones life.
Tell us some things about your best friend.She is the most beautiful, strong, intelligent and amazing person I have ever met. She is sarcastic beyond belief and it is what makes her who she is. She has big dreams and I hope to God she lives them to their fullest. She has been by my side since day one. She is the best friend I didn't even have to look for. Without her, I would not be who I am today. Her heart is the size of the universe. She never judges me, not matter what stupid decision I make. She tells me how it is and never lies to me. She is my other half and I couldn't be more grateful for her.
We've all been jealous of our best friend. Why?
I'm jealous of how tiny she is. I'm jealous that she has found love and I am still searching. She is super smart and I only wish I could be half as smart as she is. I'm jealous that she is still at home close to family while I am far away.
Do you have a dream job?
Managing a band.
Teaching in Africa.
Owning a record store.
just to name a few...
Have you ever thought about why your favorite color is your favorite color?
Turquoise. I suppose it is my favorite because it reminds me of the sky in Iowa on a perfect summer day. It reminds me of the color of the ocean in my favorite vacation spot, Cayman Islands.
Describe your favorite outfit.
Skinny jeans, a v-neck t-shirt, flannel or a sweater, and TOMS shoes.
It's 9 a.m. are you still sleeping? If not, what are you doing?
I hardly ever sleep past nine these days. Today was the second day in over two months I have slept past that. I am usually at school, working, or starting my day off somehow.
Describe three of your most unattractive qualities. (Not physical.)
I pop my pinky knuckles way too much.
I laugh at everything and its always super loud.
I don't forgive people very well.
Describe three of your most attractive qualities. (Not physical.)
I have a huge heart.
I tell things the way they are. (I find that attractive, others don't)
I will help others whenever need be.
Which was easier?
Both were alright to answer.
Is today going to be a good day?
Why yes, I do believe it will be. Got some good news, might hang out with a cool boy, no classes, its sunny AND it's Friday.
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