Confess.

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People. (but don't say their name)

1. One of these days will be the day it happens. You will see what you've been missing.
2. I was lost for a few months without you. I'm glad you're back.
3. I am sorry for what has happened and what will happen.
4. Next year!!!
5. You'll never get your life together, for a certain girl in your life, I wish you would.
6. I never thought you would be first, but you are and I am super happy.
7. Thank you for everything.
8. I miss you.
9. You annoy the fuck out of me.
10. I am super proud of you.

Nine things about myself:

1. i love to travel.
2. i don't forgive easily.
3. i love my punk rock music.
4. i like driving around listening to music
5. i sleep with a stuffed animal.
6. i hate talking on the phone.
7. i have huge dreams.
8. i want to live in a big city.
9. i love that I am 21.

Eight ways to win my heart.

1. Good taste in music
2. Respect
3. Good Laugh.
4. Love me for who I am.
5. Love to travel.
6. Will tell me how it is.
7. Is intelligent and reads books.
8. Go on walks with me.


Seven things that cross my mind a lot.

1. What is wrong with me?
2. What is wrong with him?
3. Summer travels.
4. I need a job.
5. I need out of this state.
6. Africa.
7. Ugggghhhh

Six things I do before I fall asleep

1. Plug in my phone.
2. Brush the teeeeeth.
3. Drink water.
4. Put on chap stick.
5. Listen to music.
6. Check facebook.

Five people who mean a lot. (in no order whatsoever)

1. Lauren.
2. Mom.
3. Kenzie.
4. Grandma
5. My other close friends


Four things you're wearing right now.

1. Jeans
2. Tank top
3. Sweater thing.
4. Toms

Three songs that you listen to often.

1. Guns of Brixton - The Clash
2. Slow Dancing in a Burning Room - John Mayer
3. Anything by Lady Gaga or Adam Lambert.

Two things you want to do before you die.

1. Travel the World
2. Skydive

One confession.

1. I say I regret nothing, but I do. About two things in life.

My life.

Living on a diet of chocolates and cigarettes

I wanna call you again.

I'll drink tea sometimes when its cold, its getting old.

I call you again.

Still too young to fail, too scared to sail away

One of these days

I'll grow old and I'll grow brave and I'll go

One of these days.

Blowing out the candles from my cake

I choke on the smoke as I look around the room

Everybody is wishing for no more mistakes

And all that I can think about is you

Still too young to fail, too scared to sail away

One of these days

I'll grow old and I'll grow brave and I'll go

One of these days

Chocolate and Cigarettes by Angus & Julia Stone

It's true. One of these days I will grow old and brave and go. I really will. Right now I'm scared and afraid that I would fail if I went there. With all my might I would make it not fail, but all my might has never been quite enough. To go there, I would need more then my might. To go there, I would have to take a giant leap of faith and not fall in the process. One of these days though, I will be brave enough and you will see me sailing to where I am supposed to be.

A long, long time ago...

I was able to model for my cousin whenever we felt like it. I really miss those days.

Wakey!Wakey!

This song is one of my favorites at the moment.

The lyrics are so true.

I have thought this many times in my life.

Quote of the week.

"If a guy you like doesn't like punk rock, say fuck him."

Sometimes my friends have great quotes. Sometimes my friends keep me sane. Sometimes my friends just completely know whats up.

Photos by Laurennnn

Perfect.

Everyone always looks forward to Spring Break. People spend thousands on flights, hotels, new swimsuits, fake nails, horrible fake tans and whatever else is necessary for a disease filled break in Florida. I however, am so far from any of this. My spring breaks are never filled with booze, sun and MTV.

I would have to say this Spring Break has been on of the best so far. Although I have done not much of anything, it ranks in the top 3 best spring breaks. It started Saturday with a shopping spree and pedicures with my mother. Mother-Daughter time with us is very rare these days. I am so glad that I have a mom who is also like a best friend. We have so much fun together. I am so happy I have her and could not be more thankful for her.

Monday morning started off with a little jog on the treadmill and then off to pick up one of my favorite people in the world. My little brown eyed, brown haired cutie. I had not hung out with her since January 4th. One would never know that much time had passed between our last time seeing each other. We always pick up right where we left off. That is how I know she is my everything and I would be no where without her. We made fun of ourselves because we bought things from PacSun and spent way too much on MAC makeup. It was all worth it though. We spent half the day drinking drinks, at every stop we made. One of us probably had about 100 ounces of caffeine in us by the end of the night. We then made a stop that was far too long over due. We went to the boys house who once ran to L.A. but is now back in lil Des Moines. Good times were had by all.

We woke up somewhere all too different yet all too familiar. We had our long talks of the future and what life should really be like for the both of us. Driving home at 8:30 in the morning is something I am not used to but it all felt so refreshing. The rest of the day was spent lounging, grocery shopping, making food and talking to trans-atlantic boyfriends. Couldn't have been more perfect.

Wednesday came and went. Lunch with my grandma and chilling with my mom.

Thursday is here and the weather couldn't be more amazing. It is a day for swinging, listening to music far too loud and burning the incense.

It is weird that I have yet been to Pella during this break. The past few years, Lauren and I always make a trip down there. It is kind of nice not going there. :)

Tomorrow = dress shopping for Kenzie's wedding, Ice cream from Jersey Freeze, and the boy coming to see me.

Perfect Spring Break this year? I would say so.

March 4th, 2010

This is who I saw this weekend.
I had not been to an amazing show in quite sometime. Michael Franti was amazing. So much energy and so loving. John Mayer blew my mind. Such a talented guy. He is one of the best artists that I have seen live, ever. There are only a handful of bands that sound just as they do on the album, meaning they have raw talent. John is definitely one of those select few.

-Neither of these videos were filmed from me because I was a good girl and obeyed the rules and didn't bring my camera. Wish I would have though because they didn't care. Both of them however are from the show I attended.

8 Total

I am kind of a big Apolo Ohno fan.
He's on Jay Leno tonight. Pretty excited!

Lacking

On the posts.
I have nothing to write about. No, actually I have a ton to write about. Just nothing I want any of you to actually read. Because well, it might be about you. Or maybe because I just don't want you to know about it.
Either way, I hope to starting writing and posting more again soooooon.