the last few weeks

have consisted of :

finals

Being super bummed that I had a limited number of days in this room

Getting sweet J Biebs bracelets 

Graduating college with my best friend.

whoa red eye!

Making holiday treats!

Scoring this super adorable boy.

Being kind of bummed that I am officially moved out of CF and moved back to N-town

To the boys who I went to high school with that are in question for jumping my friend,

Youre pussys.  Jumping and beating up a dude who is black out drunk and his friend who was trying to help him?  Really?  Can't jump the dude when he is full on coherent?  Too scared R and T would kick your ass?  Cause I'm pretty sure they could.  In all honesty, I hope they find you and settle this.

GET OVER HER.  You have a girlfriend who you "love".  Why are you dwelling on your ex girlfriend and beating up her ex boyfriend?

People from my hometown disappoint me.  

I had to say good bye to far too many people this weekend.
All of whom have had such an impact on my life.  I do not know what I would do without them.  College would not have been the same.
So to:
my work girls...
Kristyn
Keisha
Naomi
Hannah
Audrey
Gina
Jill
Kailey
Stef
Alisha
Ashley
Sara

my STAND people (sorry I sucked this semester, love you all)...
Brandon
Kourtny
Nina
Amy
Kelsey
Erin
Kayla

and the most important people...
Seth
Natalie
Tony
Marissa
and last but certainly not least
Rachel who has been the best roommate/friend for 3 years...

You all have a space in my heart forever.  Never ever forget this!

To those I've met along the way in school, thank you for making me who I am and helping me get where I am, I will miss you as well and good luck with student teaching you will all kick ass!!....
Sarah S.
Katie H.
Tyler W.
Shelby B.
Amanda R.
Ashley E.
Jenna G.
Brittney M.
Britnae N.

and my two favorite professors of all my college career:
Dr. Stephan Gaise
Mrs. Lynne Ensworth

to the professor determined to ruin me...you may have won in the short run, but in the long run I will come out on top and prove you wrong.  Just wait.

I think after the semester from hell...its time to get that tattoo I've been wanting for two years.
It would be so fitting right now.

I leave this town, possibly for good, in about 11 days.  I could possibly never...ever...EVER live here again.  It is probably a 97% chance that I will never live here again.  I realized tonight that I am going to miss it a lot.  This city feels more like a home than my hometown ever has.  I have far too many friends here that I have to leave.  I could not wait to get out of my hometown....this town, I wish I had a few more years in it before I was forced to leave.  The next week and a half I am going to enjoy with all my being so that I do not regret letting it slip by.

The last few weekends I have made sure to go out at least one night since I leave this amazing town in two weeks.  And I always make sure I look adorbs doing so.  

National Bad Hair Day

was yesterday and you bet I participated.
ha!!!

"When you love someone like I loved her they are apart of you.  It's like your attached by this invisible tether.  And no matter how far away you are you can always feel them.  and now every time I reach for that tether there is no one on the other end and I feel like I'm falling into nothingness" - Glee

I 

don't

get

it.

Darren Criss - GQ photoshoot Fitting

I have a ridiculously healthy obsession with this talented young man right here.

also, every girl on tumblr needs to listen to 1:00-1:15.

couldn't be more true.

in fashion, we pin everything so it looks peeerfect on the person/mannequin's body

Since Monday I have spent:

about 50 hours on homework
about 19 hours at school
about 2 hours helping my roommate pack
about 30 hours have been wasted on sleep
about 11 hours at work
about 4 hours getting ready for the days

that is a total of 116/120 hours for the week constantly doing something.

I have not had ME time all week and I'm about to go insane.
Can not wait for today to be over so that I can get out of this apartment and see people I enjoy :)

Sometimes

Being an education major is fun.  I get to make sweet projects and posters. 

Tomorrow I get to teach a room full of 20 some year olds, 1/2 of whom probably smoke, the horrible things smoking does to them.  

Since I got off early today and had a few hours to spear before hitting the town with my girls from work; I watched this gorgeous man in these two movies because I got them for a total of like 10 bucks yesterday!

Arthur

 Get Him to the Greek

neuken in de keuken


that is what part of my voicemail message said for yeeeears.
thank GOD no one spoke Dutch that called me.








i bet your going to go translate that now :)

Police pepper spraying and arresting students at UC Davis

If you have not heard about what happened at UC Davis...watch this video. It outrages me that police think they have the right to do this to protesters who are clearly not harming a soul. The students were sitting on the ground doing nothing to the police man who pepper sprayed them.

This video is powerful. You see how shitty the law can be and how amazing and powerful we the people can be if we join together and don't back down. *If you don't want to watch the whole video watch the first couple minutes to see the start, the middle few minutes to watch the police officers begin to retreat and the last couple minutes to see victory.*

***Following was taken from the video description box on YouTube***

Title says all. During peacefully Occupy Movement, police came in to tear down tents and proceeded to arrest students who stood in their way. Once students peacefully demanded the release of the arrested, a police officer unnecessarily pepper sprays the students to open a path for the rest of the officers
*UPDATE*
The officer who sprayed the students was UC Davis Police Lt. John Pike
Lieutenant John Pike - (530) 752-3989-Police Station #
Email: japikeiii@ucdavis.edu

Annette M. Spicuzza,
UC Davis Police Chief

(503) 752-3113

It also bugs me that students who want to protest and bring Peace to their campus can not do so without being pepper sprayed and arrested yet the WBBC can go protest whatever they want. Freely. They never once have been arrested or pepper sprayed for their protests. They protest solider's funerals for christ sake. How is that not arrest worthy?! I will never get the law when it comes to protesting. The ones who want peace get arrested and the ones who want to start shit are left alone.







To read more about it go here!

cha cha slide

This was over 5 years ago. That means I was 18 years old.

Oh lord how things have changed since then.

Contrary to what all my dude friends used to say...I WAS WEARING A BRA.

aaand fun fact - I'm wearig that exact shirt right now.  Its nice to see that my hair has actually grown even though I complain that it really hasn't since I chopped it 5 years ago.

Best 26 dollars I have spent in awhile.

and yes i did attend class with my hair lookin like that

Graduation

Is exactly one month from tomorrow.
I'm not technically graduating since I have to student teach still.
However, I am walking and therefore I am halfway graduating.
It is coming up far too fast.
The real world is a month and a half away.

I officially got word today that my apartment is rented out for January.
I got the "you will pass this class, you proved me wrong" from the teacher that hated me.
I bought graduation invitations.
I have started to pack things up.
Projects are piling up and my apartment looks like a tornado went through it, this means its the end of semester.

I thought I was ready.
I thought I would be so excited for this time in my life.
I suppose to an extent I am.
But to another extent I do not want college to be over.

My roommate/best friend moves all of her things to Colorado in two and a half weeks.
She is leaving me.
I am leaving her.
We are graduating college together in one month.
We are moving on to our grown up lives.

I have one more month in this town.
I think I'm going to miss it like crazy.

The bars.
The large crowds after sporting events.
The restaurants.
The stores.
Target.
maurices.
The bros and the hoes.
The simple college life atmosphere.
The stupid freshman.

My two and a half years here feels like two and a half months at times.
While at other times it feels like 2 and a half million years.

When people say time flies as you get older...listen to them.
Its true.
People actually know what they are talking about.
Good times will be over before you even have time to enjoy them.

Tonight I was taken back to a time when I was 17 years old.  Looking up at the stage to the boy who I thought was absolutely amazing.  The way he shook his long hair, the way the words slurred off his tongue and the way his fingers strummed his guitar.  I loved it...for that short 20 minutes I felt carefree. I felt alive. I felt young again.

Thank you for reforming your amazing band.
You're the last part of my teenage years that are still around and keeping me sane on crazy hot or cold nights.

In the past

I used to only take pictures of myself in Black and White because I thought I looked better in them.

I would also make sure my hair and make-up were done if I were doing colored pictures of myself

bahaha i love looking through old pictures of myself.

Keith Urban - Nobody drinks alone

This song stopped me in my tracks tonight.

Powerful

Yesterday I had the great privilege to meet Omekongo. He came to UNI to speak for Congo Week. All I can say is wow. This man is powerful. I had to hold back tears countless times as he recited his poems.

Omekongo's family is from Congo and has seen first hand the terrors that go on there. His family is the reason we, the members of STAND, do what we do. We need to do all we can to stop the terrible atrocities that are happening in Congo. We need to stand up and fight for what is right.

As we sat at dinner, he said something that really hit me and got me thinking...he was talking about how he is working on getting his PHD but it is taking him forever because, "Do I want to change the world or write papers?". This hit me because this is the struggle I face many days. Every time I sit down to write a paper, I end up surfing the web and end up at the same few sites...

Toms.com

fallingwhistles.com

enoughproject.org

invisiblechildren.com

lracrisistracker.com

one.org

all of these sites get me thinking...how can I help. Why am I just sitting here writing a paper about pointless topics that will not do me much good in the future. How can I, a little 23 year old white girl from the middle of Iowa do anything? But I am doing something. Right now.

By doing this...writing about it. Advocating. Its a start. I learned last night that there is no small role when it comes to helping. Voicing what I know is the best way to start.

Wearing my toms. Wearing my falling whistle around my neck. These small things start conversations which in turn leads to opening eyes and minds.

Here is a clip from last night. Unfortunately my camera died before I could get the whole poem so there is a video of the same poem, Welcome to the Congo from Omekongo's speech in DC last week.

You never really know how much you care about someone until you see them 100% happy with someone else and you are completely okay and happy with the one they are with.
If you have never gone through this...let me tell you, its the hardest night you will ever go through.  It will also be one of the most liberating nights you will ever go through.

#drunkandsleepdeprived  

Joe Jonas - Just In Love

Can't help myself. I think I'm kind of in love with one of the JoBros.

It was only time before he started looking like a man.

The F Word: Famine is the Real Obscenity (US)

"Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas" - Darren Criss

Its this song that makes me wish it was Christmas time all year round.

Hey Reality Star

<3 you Vinny

College Homecoming

It's not all its cracked up to be.

One of These Days

Like 40 years down the road...I will have a couple boys and a girl.
They will dress like this and their names will be so cute you would think they legit stepped out of the 1920's.

Whoever decided that 1/2 price drinks were a good idea for Sundays was stupid.

Danny O'Donoghue

This man.
I could listen to him sing for hours.

Everyone has that one friend that always pisses you off but no matter how fucking mad you are at them, you can never ACTUALLY be that mad at them for long because as soon as they open their mouth again, you forgive them and love them just the same as always.

#runonsentences

Deep breath.

So after the last two classes of my Schools in American Society, I have figured out that about 10 out of the 13 females hate me.  Why?!  Because I am willing to stand up for myself and say things how I say them.  I am not one to make everything sounds awesome just for the teacher.  I am going to say how I feel about a topic because that is what the class is about.

Example:
Last weeks topic was uniforms.
I was asked by the teacher my opinion on uniforms and if I would have liked them when I was in school.
I expressed how I do not like uniforms because one can not express them self freely.  I went on to explain that in high school I expressed who I was greatly through the choices of clothing that I put on in the morning.  -Band tee, skinny jeans, converse, bracelets, bows in my hair and a sideways belt.  
I went on to say that if I had not been able to dress like that, I honestly think I would be a somewhat of a different person now because I would not have had the freedom to wear that.  Now, thankfully the girl next to me and the boy next to me love me and we all are super open minded and get along well.  They totally agreed with me.
The rest of the girls in the class thought I was some sort of freak because I expressed myself through clothing.  One snot who went to a private school who wore uniforms through 8th grade, then attended a public school 9th and up looked directly at me with a death glare and said "Umm I NEVER expressed or even now express myself through my clothes.  I wore sweats every day because I was comfortable in them. I don't see how you express yourself through your clothes.  Uniforms are a good idea."  And of course her snotty little prissy looking friends next to her were glaring at me and then all smiled at her after her dumb comment.


Example 2:
Today's topic- Public vs Private Education
I was asked by the teacher to say something interesting that I found in my article.  I proceeded to tell the class that I found out that Private schools can reject a student who has special needs.  Private schools do not have special education teachers.  I was then asked how I felt about this.  I explained that I thought it was discrimination and that no child, I don't care what school it is, should not be turned away from education.  I then went on to say I know that Private schools do not get government money to pay special ed teachers but I think that every school should still have special education teachers.
Wellllllll the snot from the previous example, her BFF, of course had a comment for me.  Her comment was that private schools should not have special education teachers because it costs too much money and private schools do not have the kind of money to pay them and special education students should be public schools anyway.  What really pissed me off about this....the girl is a freaking SPECIAL ED major.  I'm so glad that she thinks her future students do not have the right to go to private schools and that they are only meant for public schools.
Tttthhheeeennnn some other girl had to throw her 2 cents in and comment about something else that just pissed me off and made me look like I was stupid for standing up for special education students.

Lets just say, its a good thing Tyler sits next to me and can calm me down cause I was on the edge of my freaking seat.

Okay S, deep breath.

End rant...until Thursday when I'm bound to get ganged up on again!

 

I can thank Miss L for putting me in a Good Charlotte mood.
These boys used to be my life.  I ate, slept and breathed Good Charlotte. Umm ate? that sounds weird. Anyway, my whole existence was based around them for quite some time.
To this day I can not help but smile, dance and sing every word when I hear an old GC song.

This song brings me back to 8th grade track.  The album dropped that year and Cassandra and I were listening to it for the first time on the bus when this song came on and we hear "Shake 3 times you're playing with your self" and we both looked at each other and giggled like a couple of immature 8th grade girls would do.  Ohh to be young again.

Enjoy!

Umm, okay?

Dear Genius,
 Usually when I play a song and click on you, you play a great mix of songs that deal with the artist I chose.  Not sure how ANY of these artists go with Justin Timberlake and/or SexyBack.  Please get back to being awesome like old times.

Sincerely,
Me

Whoo!

First Thursday in about 2 months that I have not had to work and what am I doing?!
Sitting at home watching The Big Bang Theory by myself because my best friend is back home, my roommate is working, and the boy is at a concert.

If you look super close you can see Penny in my glasses! ha!

I have a sweet San Fran cup.  Thank you Target.