EEEEEEEEEEEEK!!!!!

So i just found out that Hanson has a new cd out. Im so excited. Yes I am excited about Hanson. I fucking love them with a passion! They are my only band that I still like from when i was like, 9 hahahah. Eeeek!!

Lucky #13

Day one:
5:00 am
Woke up. I was up before the sun. That NEVER happens. But I will do whatever I have to for my bands.
6:15
went to get lauren. loaded all her stuff and got ready to head out.
6:40
we were on the open road.
10:15
we reach our hotel. totally pumped.
10:30
get on the metro thing
11:00
arive at motha fuckin warped tour 2007. lucky #13. (lucky is right)



it was way hot but not to humid so it was alright i guess. we met up with chris and anton and chilled with them for most of the day. it was sweet to see them cause i dont get to see them enough.
so the bands we checked out were:
Boys Like Girls, Funeral For a Friend, Straylight Run, Chiodos, Cinematic Sunrise, The Spill Canvas, Paramore, Pepper, Cute is What We Aim For, Poison The Well, Red Jumpsuit Apperatus (from waaaay far away), Alkaline Trio, unfortunatley some of Hawthorne Heights, Circa Survive.
We got back to the hotel around 10:15. after checking in, we went and ate at Fridays. I sat down, looked over to my right and saw Nick Thomas of the Spill Canvas eating. lucky for us, he stayed in our hotel so we got to enjoy looking at his cute face a lot. no we didnt talk to him. we were dumb. we also didnt want to bug him. oh we also saw cody's twin at fridays. CRAZY haha

Day Two:
Got up. went to eat breakfast. saw nick getting his breakfast. got ready. checked out with Nick right behind us. went to the mall. saw Cute is What We Aim For, then we saw Killswitch Engage eating sushi peacefully untill some stupid crazed fan boys bugged them by being really creepy. We saw a shit ton of others too. it was amazing. shopping sucked. the mall of america is by far to overrated. so we finally left the mall and all the bands behind and left around 5:15 back to dreaded iowa.


it was an amazing weekend. i will get pictures up soon.


PLAY LIST ON THE WAY TO MINNEAPOLIS:
CURSIVE
NSYNC
BEAT STRINGS

PLAY LIST ON THE WAY HOME:
THE SPILL CANVAS
HANSON
SHINY TOY GUNS

Do dreams come true?

I had a dream last night.
You and I were together. We were happy. We lived close to each other. I knew what I wanted and so did you. It was one of the best dreams I have had in awhile. Myabe one day this dream will become reality.

Huge Rant.

Do you really like music, or is it because its the cool, in thing to do? I mean has music really impacted your life? Like I mean REALLY impacted your life? Is there a certain song or band that helped you through some of the toughest shit in your life and when you hear the song or band it takes you back to the time and makes your cry because its so powerful? There are more bands out there then Panic! At the Disco, Gym Class Heros and A7X, you know that right? There are bands out there who really dig deep into the meanings of things and express it with such passion. Those bands you wont find on the radio. Do you know any of them? Just because you read AP and watch Fuse does not make you a music lover. Half you, I swear, only get AP because you want to fit in. Do you support the local music scene? Do you know of bands from around your area that are making it big? Did you also know that just because a band as "hot" people in it, they aren't always good? Being "hot" should not make a band. Yeah bands have cute people, but lets focus on what really counts, what they are saying. Who cares if you have the same shirt as one of them, or you totally want their peircing or lyke oh my gawd his hair is awesome. Ugh people!, for real I don't get you. I'm sorry but I can't stand all you out there who are "so into music" right now just because it is the "cool thing". I am pretty sure in another year or so you will be back your your regular jockey, "oh my god i hate scene kids and their hardcore, punk, emo music" selves. Till then, please don't ruin the good music scene. Thanks.

no capatlization

these are my thoughts, prayers, dreams, hopes and feelings. i will write as i please. it is what is in my head. take them as you wish, i know you will. you will twist them to make them be what you want them to be. so go on, fantasize. think that everything i write is about you, or you, or maybe even you (yeah you, the one in the corner) keep wondering. for you will never know.

I've got no room to complain

yesterday made me very happy.
i spent the day shopping with my favorite person in the world.
we hit up the best place in the world.
then went to Jordan creek and were very loud in almost every store we went in.
loud laughs rock!
we also got a compliment on our outfits,because well, we pretty much have it going on.
then we got told our outfits were weird by three guys who were wearing gay ass shorts with sandals that old men wear and dumb t-shirts.
yeah no room to talk kiddos.
whatever
it made us laugh.
then we had a group of girls stare at us. not trying to hide it either. man do people have problems now-a-days.
oh well.
i got killer grandma looking sunglasses. that makes me happy too.
yep pretty much a good day all together.

It beats me everytime

It is people like you that make me despise this town.
You talk yourself up like you are some righteous person but then turn around and fall from grace, yet it is okay because it was you.
God forbid someone do something before you get to it.
You are not going to always be the first person to do something.
Get over it.
People will beat you to a trend that you think makes you stand out in the crowd but really just makes you fit in even more.
I just dont get it.
You and I used to get along so well.
We were friends.
We used to laugh and have inside jokes.
But...
I fell off the path first and I am the worst person in the world.
Whatever I dont care anymore.

Quite and Calm

Today was pretty lame.
Went to see my dad.
Worked.
Sat at home.
Sitting at home is becoming a regular thing.
I don't like it.



Playlist for the week:
Sam Cooke - Cupid
Shiny Toy Guns - Chemisty of a Car Crash
Paulson - Window Frames
Peter Bjorn & John - Amsterdam
The Feeling - Never be Lonely

Lyric of the Day

You hold the rights I'll never own
And i've never felt
So alien
Don't tear us apart again

What is the use of it
We're ok, it's nothing . .
It's all chemistry of a car crash



Chemisty of a Car Crash - Shiny Toy Guns

Loves Completely Real

I just want someone.
Someone I can turn to.
Someone who will be there every minute of the day.
Not just when it is convenient for them
or when they are home.
I want someone who wants me as much as I want them.
I want someone who will put me in my place if I do something wrong.
I want someone who will tell me how it is, not what I want to hear.
I want someone who will love me for who I am, even if I make mistakes.
I want someone who will respect me.
I want someone who will do anything for me and do it without a fuss.
I want someone who will joke around with me and not get offended.
I want someone who will fight for me. When I start to doubt things, I want them to prove that they still love me and that they will never let me go.



I know this is sooo much to ask for, but I can't help but want it all. I have found so many people that do some of this, but not all of it. Hopefully one day, I will get it. Love is completely real, I just have yet to find it.

It's all real.

This wont slove the problem. It's not just some bad dream that I can wake up from at any minute. It's real life. It really is happening. I can't solve all my problems by what I have done the past few nights. fuck.







update:

i have finally eaten a real meal. it was hard to eat but i did it.

i still haven't slept that much but i will tonight.

Just what I needed.

Last night was just what I needed. I still thought about it, but Tim was there to help ease my mind about it all just for a night. It was nice to surround myself with people who care, so thank you Tim and Jeff, even Andrea. Thank you.

Here for the taking.

He looked Death in the eye and told Him that it was not his time to go.
He told Him he had a family back home. A son that would be devistated to know his dad wouldn't be at another track meet ever again, a daughter that would be devistated that her dad would never get to take her camping and fishing again, and a wife who would not be able to live without him. He told Death that he would not go no matter how bad Death wanted him to. Death told him that the people up above thought he was gone already so why not just prove them right. He told Death that he was a fighter and no one could talk him out of living. So he fought Death he fought Him until the end, when he finally surfaced and saw the light along with the people above.

fuck

i need sleep. i'm exhausted. i need food. i have ate one proper meal in 52 hours.

Just a few things

A list of things I want to do before I die.
-Study abroad
-Graduate college
-Backpack through Europe
-Live in London
-Climb to the top of the Eiffel Tower
-Go to an airport with a bag, passport and money and hop on the first flight available.
-Ride a gondola in Italy
-See Morrissey live
-Road trip across the whole country
-Write an article for a magazine
-Go on a hot air balloon ride
-Follow a band on tour
-Take pictures in a picture booth
-Go to New York for New Years
-Visit Pearl Harbor to pay my respects
-Eat a whole box of oreos by myself
-Leave a 100% tip
-Go through a toll booth and pay for the car behind me
-Run my own business
-Cuddle all day long in bed
-Watch the sunrise in Florida and the sun set in Cali. In one day.
-Play board games all night with close friends
-Live on Raman Noodles and Dr Pepper for a week
-Live somewhere long enough to have an accent
-Get the "I did it my way" tattoo in rememberance of my grandpa
-Learn to speak Dutch
-Visit Denmark
-Visit Sweden
-Learn about my family history
-Teach
-Walk on the beach with someone I care about
-Go horseback riding

Days like these are great

Yesterday, something happened that never happens. I got hang out with three of my favorite people all at once, for a WHOLE day. Why does this never happen? I am not sure, I try to make it happen a lot but it just never does. It was nice though. I wish so much that it would just happen more often. I don't think it will, so yesterday was a treat and I enjoyed it very much.



Play list for tonight:
Frank Sinatra
Dean Martin
Bobby Darin

Lovely

Yesterday I went on a bike ride and sat around a fire in my back yard with Lauren. It was quite refreshing. We has some good laughs and wonderful conversations. I don't know what I would do or where I would be without her.
Today we rode our bikes again, layed out for an hour and a half and got ice cream. We also listened to Lilly Allen and talked about our future plans.
This weekend was very lovely.

LND

I am so excited. This could be my home for ten weeks in a year and a half.