Good things never last.

All good things must come to an end, or so I have been told. And experienced for that matter. Seems all good things that happen in life come for a short time then fade away like the color of leaves in the fall. Why is it, something good can't last forever? Cause let's face it, it never does. You can pretend all you want that whatever it is you have that is wonderful will last forever. However we all get sick of things or they leave or change and are never the same as what they once were. Love, it is said to be amazing when you first find it, and then for sometime after as well. Soon enough though, love fades, people change and the once wonderful connection between two people is no longer the same. Best friends, they come and go more often then some of my friends take showers. People go through ten best friends by the time they hit middle school and then throughout high school and college they have another couple best friends. Their best friend whom they called a sister will most likely change and no longer be the coolest person they know. Music, it amazing. It always will be, but it also changes and your favorite band will soon change too. A band will break up, or "sell out" and they won't be in your Top 5 bands anymore. They will be pushed to the back of the shelf where they will become dusty. You may get sick of the genre you were so dedicated too and have to switch to another one. The car you drive, the house you own, they shoes you wear. They are all wonderful at the time you buy them, but they soon get old, rusty and out of style and they are no longer something good. I am determined to find something that will be wonderful, good, and amazing for the rest of my existence. I believe it would be the coolest thing ever.

Things in my life that ended to soon or don't last long enough:

Being Able To Hang Out With Both of Them At The Same Time


Going To Shows Every Weekend


Being 16 and Clueless


Days Like This


Having Christina As My Twin


Roadtrips With My Best Friend


Summer Loves


Countless Hours At The Secret Shop


Nights In Marshalltown


Summertime Chillin At Red Rock


Crushes On Stupid Boys


High School Memories Such As Prom


Hanging Out With Anton All The Time


Summertime


Being Best Friends With Mike


Being Carefee and Young.

The New Editions

I bought ten cds this weekend. Some may see this as a total waste of money and I see it as the best thing one could spend money on. Its like a high. The best kind of high in the world. Then unwrapping them is like Christmas morning. haha I love it!

The ones I bought were:

Glory Hope Mountain - The Acorn
Fractured Life - Air Traffic
Across the Universe Soundtrack
The Sun and The Moon - The Bravery
Fort Music - The Dead Trees
Seventh Tree - Goldfrapp
Help Wanted Nights - The Good Life
I'll Be Lightening - Liam Finn
Texas - PlayRadioPlay!
A Twist in My Story - Secondhand Serenade

Sweetness

Unexpected friendships are the best, they make you smile on bad days. They are the type with no strings attached, they just pop up. They include people you meet along the journey we all call life. The people who just happen to come into your life when you least expect it. They are the kind of people you only read about or see in the movies. The ones who have the exciting life and whom you think would never want to give you the time of day, only they do. They give you a little more then the time of day. It could be the hot girl who moves in next door or the boy who is in a friend's band who is way too cute for you. They come into your life for a period then leave, yet still keep in contact with you. They don't have to, there is no obligation to keep in touch, but they do it because they want to. It shows you were more then just a neighbor or just someone they met randomly at a show. You have impacted their life as they have yours. I wish I could find more of these types of friendships. They are the kind I tend to cherish more then others.

The sun rises in the east.

Right now, the east coast has my name written all over it. New Jersey and New York sound about right. The Atlantic wants me to walk its shores and watch the sun rise over them. Freedom is calling my name. For just a week even. It must happen. The east coast knows I need to see what else is out there in this world besides rows of corn and snow. It knows I am at the point in life where I just want to live freely and have a lot of adventures. I know I want to live on the West coast but the East is what is calling me right now. I will go. I am determined. There is nothing that is going to keep me from exploring this dream of mine.

Anniversary

It's been one year.
To the hour. (10:30 p.m.)
How weird.

Pythons Awake.

What a way to kick off my spring break. Sitting at home. Lame. I can tell this spring break is going to be so amazing. Not.

I decided to go on a drive earlier.
To no where in particular, I just drove.
I thought about a lot of things.
It was nice.
I had my sunroof open, with a cool breeze flowing through my car,
I blared by music
and just drove.
After all my thinking though,
I realized I hadn't accomplished much.
I wanted to try and find answers,
but no answers came to me.
It's okay I guess.
It was just nice to be able to think about all of them.



Jammin to:
Numbers - Pompeii
Bad Enough - The City Lives
Rabbit Hole - The City Lives
Are We Different? - Priscilla Ahn
The Black Static Screen -VersaEmerge

Happiness is a Warm Gun

I watched Across the Universe this weekend for the first time. I fell in love with it. The movie was made perfectly. Each detailed scene was scripted and filmed with such beauty and precision it made me shiver. I love being able to watch movies like this. It also made me realize that I really do like The Beatles, there is no denying it. I can't any longer, I catch myself humming I've Just Seen a Face and Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds all the time.
I am so excited to go buy it and the soundtrack!

Girl, Freal.

I'm not even sure where to begin. There are these two people who are in my life, no, make that used to be in my life, that have done something so bizarre. It makes me want to scream. Both of them talked the worst shit about each other to me, if only I had saved the conversations. Funny how it happens. Can people just not tell the truth about how they feel? I don't even know why I care, maybe it is because I feel as if I have been betrayed, used, lied too, laughed at, and manipulated. I want to be able to say "Fuck you, you deserve each other seeing as you both are compulsive liars and no one should have to deal with your lies besides each other" but I can't. Technically I just did say it, but its just a blog, it doesn't REALLY count. Just remembering what both have said to me about each other in the past makes my brain hurt. I can't wrap my thoughts around what I just saw. Ugh, I will never understand people and the choices they make.

Vivid.

As I sit here listening to The Clash, in which I do in spurts. My head is flooded with memories of a time long ago. May of 2006 to be exact. A line of cars pull into an old warehouse parking lot, rented out by a couple of guys in the white van. It was a cool evening, stars shining down upon young kids as they piled out of their vehicles laughing and enjoying the company. Two of the youngest were girls, bright eyed and full of life. The rest of the group was well into their 20's and living the life. Inside this desolate looking warehouse there was so much life. Out of one room came the sounds of Johnny Cash, Billy Idol, The Rolling Stones and The Clash. From another room full of grass peaking out of the cracks stood a few select people discussing god knows what. Probably politics or some bizarre topic that people would rather not listen in on. To the side stood the two young girls, only 15 and 17. They stood alone talking about things such as life and how their parents just didn't understand what was going on in their lives. After awhile a boy came up to them asking them what they were talking about and why they weren't mingling with the rest of the people. The girls giggled and didn't have a response. He grabbed them both a drink and their night started to get a bit more lively from that point. Dancing in the room filled with lovely music. Conversations with people they didn't know. Laughing harder then they ever had over the littlest things. There was this joy shared by everyone that night. They had no one to impress, no one to answer too. They were just being them. Living in the moment. Whatever happened that night, happened. No one thought twice about anything. It was almost as if it were a dream, yet it was all so real.






Lately, I have been jamming to:

Moment of Truth - FM Static
Uptown Girl - Billy Joel
Pray for Plagues - Bring Me the Horizon
Must be Dreaming - Frou Frou
Secret - Greeley Estates
I can Feel Your Pain - Manchester Orchestra