It was once said that a black man would be president the day pigs fly.
And what do you know, 100 days into office...
Swine flu.
oaky, well I thought it was kind of funny.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Someday.
You keep saying someday.
You have been saying someday for two years now.
Hunny, if our someday was supposed to happen, it would have happened today.
Today, was our someday.
I felt it.
The weather was just like it was on our first day.
Rainy, wind, lightening and thunder.
We do not live in a fairy tale.
I am getting older and I can not keep waiting for someday.
I have to wake up and realize that someday might have already passed.
We can not keep living in this dream.
Reality is here.
The false hopes held so high, they need to come down.
Someday was today.
Listening to:
How do you sleep - Jesse McCartney
All the love in all the world - Piers Faccini
Deep Blue Sea - Piers Faccini
You have been saying someday for two years now.
Hunny, if our someday was supposed to happen, it would have happened today.
Today, was our someday.
I felt it.
The weather was just like it was on our first day.
Rainy, wind, lightening and thunder.
We do not live in a fairy tale.
I am getting older and I can not keep waiting for someday.
I have to wake up and realize that someday might have already passed.
We can not keep living in this dream.
Reality is here.
The false hopes held so high, they need to come down.
Someday was today.
Listening to:
How do you sleep - Jesse McCartney
All the love in all the world - Piers Faccini
Deep Blue Sea - Piers Faccini
Personal Ad.
So we had to do an assignment in Human Sexuality over personal ads. So I thought I would do one. I changed it up a bit though, its not a normal personal ad, its got my own twissst. So enjoyyy.
If you are from the Midwest like me. Cool, I guess. If you are from the coasts even better. If you are from the south, I can work with that.
You absolutely must be older then me. A good four to five years is best. Over the age of 28? Go away, thanks. Under the age of 21? Go away, thanks. 22? Lets have fun. Get the picture? Good.
Must be TALL. Over six foot is preferable, yet if a bit shorter I suppose that is okay. Below five foot eleven inches and we are going to be friends. I do not need a boy shorter then me.
Color of hair does not matter. However, I am not a fan of redheads. Or fake blondes. If you highlight your hair with blonde, please keep walking. Long hair is required. I do make exceptions, if I do, you're pretty special. I'm not really into the whole Ambercrombie short spiked hair. If you are going to have a shaved head, it better look good on you and you better have the attitude someone with a shaved head would have.
Must NOT listen to bands such as All Time Low, Forever the Sickest Kids or Boys Like Girls. My ears bleed at the sound of those bands and if I hear them one more time I might go deaf or quite possibly die. We do not want that. Also, NO Nickleback, Stained, Hinder, Creed, Saving Able listening. They do not know how to make real music. Absolutely NO Avenged Sevenfold either.
Please listen to bands such as Copeland, Conor Oberst, Jenny Lewis, Bright Eyes, The Spill Canvas, The Good Life, Cursive, The Toxic Airborne Event, Anthony Green, Cinematic Sunrise, The Clash, Ramones, Morrissey, The Sex Pistols, Modern Life is War, Tori Amos, Amos Lee, Frank Sinatra, Dean Martin, Sam Cooke. These people all have a great deal to say, you must be able to listen and fully understand them.
Must NOT have crazy ex girlfriends who want to kick my ass because they broke up with you and are now with someone else. If they think they still own you and you let them think that, you have problems and do not need to be with someone like me.
MUST, must, MUST have some sort of musical talent. Singing, play guitar/bass, drums, keyboards. ANYTHING, well maybe not the clarinet and flute but you get it. Being able to play songs on the guitar that you learned in middle school music class does not count either. Real talent please.
Going on road trips and adventures is something I love to do. Please make sure you like to do this as well. Find new places, people and things. We only live once, please know how to live it well.
Must have an education. High school drop outs, stay away. A four year degree or working towards a degree is amazing.
I have morals and goals in life. Please be able to respect them and understand them fully. If you argue with me about them, we will not work. Understand I have a huge passion for TOMS shoes and children in Africa. I want to go on a shoe drop with TOMS and I want to go teach over in Africa. You question me about this in the aspect that it is dumb, I will leave you faster then a gizelle on the plains.
Please make sure you are literate. Illiterate people are not welcome. If you always spell 'you' as 'u' and 'are' as 'r' I will get very annoyed by you.
I voice my opinion about most everything. Be able to take it and not get offended. I am quite sarcastic at times as well. Please be able to take a joke as well as dish them.
Roller coasters and Oceans excite me. If they don't excite you, I would like to know who sucked the life out of you.
I do not sleep well next to someone. I can not touch people while I sleep. However, I adore holding hands and cuddling, at the appropriate times. I sleep with my fan on high in the summer. I fall asleep with my ipod most nights and I love bubble baths. I sleep with a stuffed animal and three pillows. I love eating corn on the cob because I am from Iowa and its the best. I drink kool-aid in the summer. I eat ice cream in the winter. I do not drink hot drinks because I can not stand hot drinks.
I'm awesome if you are willing to get to know me. Otherwise, I'm kind of a bitch.
If you are from the Midwest like me. Cool, I guess. If you are from the coasts even better. If you are from the south, I can work with that.
You absolutely must be older then me. A good four to five years is best. Over the age of 28? Go away, thanks. Under the age of 21? Go away, thanks. 22? Lets have fun. Get the picture? Good.
Must be TALL. Over six foot is preferable, yet if a bit shorter I suppose that is okay. Below five foot eleven inches and we are going to be friends. I do not need a boy shorter then me.
Color of hair does not matter. However, I am not a fan of redheads. Or fake blondes. If you highlight your hair with blonde, please keep walking. Long hair is required. I do make exceptions, if I do, you're pretty special. I'm not really into the whole Ambercrombie short spiked hair. If you are going to have a shaved head, it better look good on you and you better have the attitude someone with a shaved head would have.
Must NOT listen to bands such as All Time Low, Forever the Sickest Kids or Boys Like Girls. My ears bleed at the sound of those bands and if I hear them one more time I might go deaf or quite possibly die. We do not want that. Also, NO Nickleback, Stained, Hinder, Creed, Saving Able listening. They do not know how to make real music. Absolutely NO Avenged Sevenfold either.
Please listen to bands such as Copeland, Conor Oberst, Jenny Lewis, Bright Eyes, The Spill Canvas, The Good Life, Cursive, The Toxic Airborne Event, Anthony Green, Cinematic Sunrise, The Clash, Ramones, Morrissey, The Sex Pistols, Modern Life is War, Tori Amos, Amos Lee, Frank Sinatra, Dean Martin, Sam Cooke. These people all have a great deal to say, you must be able to listen and fully understand them.
Must NOT have crazy ex girlfriends who want to kick my ass because they broke up with you and are now with someone else. If they think they still own you and you let them think that, you have problems and do not need to be with someone like me.
MUST, must, MUST have some sort of musical talent. Singing, play guitar/bass, drums, keyboards. ANYTHING, well maybe not the clarinet and flute but you get it. Being able to play songs on the guitar that you learned in middle school music class does not count either. Real talent please.
Going on road trips and adventures is something I love to do. Please make sure you like to do this as well. Find new places, people and things. We only live once, please know how to live it well.
Must have an education. High school drop outs, stay away. A four year degree or working towards a degree is amazing.
I have morals and goals in life. Please be able to respect them and understand them fully. If you argue with me about them, we will not work. Understand I have a huge passion for TOMS shoes and children in Africa. I want to go on a shoe drop with TOMS and I want to go teach over in Africa. You question me about this in the aspect that it is dumb, I will leave you faster then a gizelle on the plains.
Please make sure you are literate. Illiterate people are not welcome. If you always spell 'you' as 'u' and 'are' as 'r' I will get very annoyed by you.
I voice my opinion about most everything. Be able to take it and not get offended. I am quite sarcastic at times as well. Please be able to take a joke as well as dish them.
Roller coasters and Oceans excite me. If they don't excite you, I would like to know who sucked the life out of you.
I do not sleep well next to someone. I can not touch people while I sleep. However, I adore holding hands and cuddling, at the appropriate times. I sleep with my fan on high in the summer. I fall asleep with my ipod most nights and I love bubble baths. I sleep with a stuffed animal and three pillows. I love eating corn on the cob because I am from Iowa and its the best. I drink kool-aid in the summer. I eat ice cream in the winter. I do not drink hot drinks because I can not stand hot drinks.
I'm awesome if you are willing to get to know me. Otherwise, I'm kind of a bitch.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Sweetness.
Today was a good day.
The sun was shining when I woke up.
It was super warm out.
I could smell summer creeping in the air.
I drove with my windows down on the interstate.
I wore a tank top.
I ate a salad for lunch.
I worked three hours and no body showed up.
I loved that for once.
I read children's stories that I forgot I loved so much.
I did yoga in my sauna of a house.
My brother got 2nd at Drake Relays.
I had a text conversation with an old friend.
aanndd
I ate a piece of chocolate.
Yes, today was a good day.
The sun was shining when I woke up.
It was super warm out.
I could smell summer creeping in the air.
I drove with my windows down on the interstate.
I wore a tank top.
I ate a salad for lunch.
I worked three hours and no body showed up.
I loved that for once.
I read children's stories that I forgot I loved so much.
I did yoga in my sauna of a house.
My brother got 2nd at Drake Relays.
I had a text conversation with an old friend.
aanndd
I ate a piece of chocolate.
Yes, today was a good day.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Just a playlist kind of day.
So this is what my Bubble Bath playlist was.
Couldn't have asked for a better one.
Oh how I love Itunes Genius.
Couldn't have asked for a better one.
Oh how I love Itunes Genius.
Monday, April 20, 2009
4-20
420 is not a freaking holiday.
Seriously people, you smoke pot every other day, today is no different.
It makes me sick to think people actually "celebrate" smoking pot today.
Today is Holocaust Remembrance day.
The sad thing is half the people on this continent don't know that because they think it is Smoke Pot day.
It is pathetic to think people smoke pot over remembering something so tragic in the history of the world.
Anyways, that is a short version of my rant for the day.
Seriously people, you smoke pot every other day, today is no different.
It makes me sick to think people actually "celebrate" smoking pot today.
Today is Holocaust Remembrance day.
The sad thing is half the people on this continent don't know that because they think it is Smoke Pot day.
It is pathetic to think people smoke pot over remembering something so tragic in the history of the world.
Anyways, that is a short version of my rant for the day.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Bad Day.
Sick as a dog today.
Went to class anyway.
Could not do yoga.
Very Upset.
Tomorrow better be better.
Went to class anyway.
Could not do yoga.
Very Upset.
Tomorrow better be better.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
April 11, 2009
After an hour straight of hard crying and a bit too much alcohol, a hot bubble bath and a Lauren and Sarah's Hate Playlist, I realized something. Everything happens for a reason. I have always been a strong believer in this. It is hard for me sometimes to live by it though. Today though, today is the day I start. I am sick of trying to guide my life where I think it should go. I need to let life take me where it knows I need to go. I can not go on with this pity party I hold for myself every few months. It is getting old and I am sick of it. It never makes things better nor does it ever solve anything. I am turning over a new leaf. It will take a lot of baby steps to fully get there, but I know I can do it. It is what I need.
Lauren and Sarah's Hate Playlist:
Everything I Once Had - The Honorary Title
Silver Bullet (acoustic version) -Hawthorne Heights
Album of the Year - The Good Life
Haligh, Haligh, A Lie, Haligh - Bright Eyes
You're So Vain - Carley Simon
Intensity in Ten Cities - Chiodos
Lauren and Sarah's Hate Playlist:
Everything I Once Had - The Honorary Title
Silver Bullet (acoustic version) -Hawthorne Heights
Album of the Year - The Good Life
Haligh, Haligh, A Lie, Haligh - Bright Eyes
You're So Vain - Carley Simon
Intensity in Ten Cities - Chiodos
Friday, April 10, 2009
Chain me free.
I feel as if I have chains attached to me.
Every time I finally figure out the solution to freeing myself,
You come back.
The chains grasp around me once again
Harder then the times before.
Each time you come back around,
A little piece of me gives up hope.
There will never be another quite like you.
It's my fault though.
These chains,
I placed them here.
There is no one to blame but myself.
One day I hope to be free.
One day I hope you can come around.
And when you come around,
The chains will still lay broken on the floor.
Every time I finally figure out the solution to freeing myself,
You come back.
The chains grasp around me once again
Harder then the times before.
Each time you come back around,
A little piece of me gives up hope.
There will never be another quite like you.
It's my fault though.
These chains,
I placed them here.
There is no one to blame but myself.
One day I hope to be free.
One day I hope you can come around.
And when you come around,
The chains will still lay broken on the floor.
Curious.
How in the hell do we still dream about people who were in our lives over four years ago?
Is it really true that we dream about what we think about before we go to bed?
If so, I do not remember thinking about this person.
At all.
Why does he always pop up in my dreams?
I feel like it almost makes me a creeper.
I know we can't help what we dream, but still.
I am not complaining about this dream.
I just feel weird.
and.
I just find dreams intriguing and I wish I understood them.
Is it really true that we dream about what we think about before we go to bed?
If so, I do not remember thinking about this person.
At all.
Why does he always pop up in my dreams?
I feel like it almost makes me a creeper.
I know we can't help what we dream, but still.
I am not complaining about this dream.
I just feel weird.
and.
I just find dreams intriguing and I wish I understood them.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
I mean really?
So in the past 48 hours I have encountered so many bad things.
- lap top battery died
- hair straightener died
- people pissed me off in Human Sexuality
- couldn't go see Copeland
- couldn't go see Conor Oberst
- couldn't go eat at Denny's with The Maine
- the prior two musicians were in the same town, how convenient
- did not have to actually go to speech like I thought tonight (reason why i missed Copeland)
- had to write a 5 page paper on the lamest topic in history
- thought i lost all 12 works cited things i did
- pressed the wrong button on the vending machine and got something really gross
- the pop machine was out of Mt. Dew
- left my car unlocked when i went to tan
- forgot my ipod when i went to tan
- cut my leg shaving
- spilt kool-aid all over the counter
- found out how much i have to take out for a loan next year. YIKES
- can not find my other Copeland c.d.
- forgot to start the laundry
- was late to speech
- found out my library and video store do not carry a movie i need to do a report
- people other then lauren and i get to go see Neko Case
Good things with in the past 48 hours:
- it was sunny yesterday
- children's lit was cancelled
- intro to soc was interrupted by a tornado practice
- i ate at perkins
Good things for TOMORROW:
- i might splurge and buy Ray Bans
- i get to go out to eat with jon
- i get off at 5 instead of 6
- its friday
thats all folks.
- lap top battery died
- hair straightener died
- people pissed me off in Human Sexuality
- couldn't go see Copeland
- couldn't go see Conor Oberst
- couldn't go eat at Denny's with The Maine
- the prior two musicians were in the same town, how convenient
- did not have to actually go to speech like I thought tonight (reason why i missed Copeland)
- had to write a 5 page paper on the lamest topic in history
- thought i lost all 12 works cited things i did
- pressed the wrong button on the vending machine and got something really gross
- the pop machine was out of Mt. Dew
- left my car unlocked when i went to tan
- forgot my ipod when i went to tan
- cut my leg shaving
- spilt kool-aid all over the counter
- found out how much i have to take out for a loan next year. YIKES
- can not find my other Copeland c.d.
- forgot to start the laundry
- was late to speech
- found out my library and video store do not carry a movie i need to do a report
- people other then lauren and i get to go see Neko Case
Good things with in the past 48 hours:
- it was sunny yesterday
- children's lit was cancelled
- intro to soc was interrupted by a tornado practice
- i ate at perkins
Good things for TOMORROW:
- i might splurge and buy Ray Bans
- i get to go out to eat with jon
- i get off at 5 instead of 6
- its friday
thats all folks.
Love Affair.
If I could have a Love Affair with a band, Copeland would be my preference.
They saved me once or twice.
They are playing tonight.
I am not attending.
I will probably cry all night.
Playlist:
All the Copeland Albums I own. I can't find their other one.
Beneath the Medicine Tree
Dress Up & In Line
Eat, Sleep, Repeat
Grey Man EP
You Are My Sunshine
They saved me once or twice.
They are playing tonight.
I am not attending.
I will probably cry all night.
Playlist:
All the Copeland Albums I own. I can't find their other one.
Beneath the Medicine Tree
Dress Up & In Line
Eat, Sleep, Repeat
Grey Man EP
You Are My Sunshine
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Familiar Territory
Back to dreaming mode again.
Being giddy over something that most likely will not happen.
Planning for the future.
Hopes high.
Big smiles and little "Eeks"
I love this feeling.
Being giddy over something that most likely will not happen.
Planning for the future.
Hopes high.
Big smiles and little "Eeks"
I love this feeling.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Record.
53 hours of not getting or sending a text. That is a new record for me by like 40 some hours. Lauren just sent me a text to break it. ha.
I hate how I have nothing to write about anymore.
I hate how I have nothing to write about anymore.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Uneventful.
My life has become so uneventful, it is not even funny.
1. I have not hung out with anyone for an entire week.
2. I have not received a text message today.
3. I have not sent a text message today.
4. I have not actually received or sent a text in over 36 hours.
5. I sat in Gina's room for three hours yesterday just to not be alone. (the person that does my hair does not count for hanging out with anyone)
6. I actually enjoyed the drive to Ankeny today, that NEVER happens.
aaannnddd
7. I'm actually not mad I have to work all weekend because it will give me something to do.
I also took out my bad mood on 12 year olds who decided they could disrespect me and talk to me as if I am no one. I smiled the whole time while they were almost crying due to the words that were flowing from my mouth. Hmm...I think I need help. heh.
1. I have not hung out with anyone for an entire week.
2. I have not received a text message today.
3. I have not sent a text message today.
4. I have not actually received or sent a text in over 36 hours.
5. I sat in Gina's room for three hours yesterday just to not be alone. (the person that does my hair does not count for hanging out with anyone)
6. I actually enjoyed the drive to Ankeny today, that NEVER happens.
aaannnddd
7. I'm actually not mad I have to work all weekend because it will give me something to do.
I also took out my bad mood on 12 year olds who decided they could disrespect me and talk to me as if I am no one. I smiled the whole time while they were almost crying due to the words that were flowing from my mouth. Hmm...I think I need help. heh.
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