Let down.

"Please don't let me down." - That was the end of a blog I wrote awhile back.

Well, I was definitely let once again. I am done this time. This was the last straw. I mean it with every fiber of my being. You had your shot and you fucking blew it. You lied. Every word you have been spitting my way the past few months have been nothing but lies. I do not know why I thought this time would be different. Maybe I thought you had grown up, but you haven't. You disappointed me and made me look like an idiot in front of everyone again. "Sarah, he is just going to hurt you again", "Sarah, you know he won't show up. Something will 'come up'". Well everyone, you were right. He didn't show, something 'came up', and I got hurt once again. I gave you second, third and sixtieth chances. I should have stopped at the second one. People like you never change, when will I learn.

I took down that damn picture of us again in my car. I took it down and held it out the window. The air was ripping at it, dying to take it to a far away place so I would never have to look at it again. Instead I jammed it back into the glove box one and final time.