Today I added another amazing person to the list of people who have left my life. As much as I want to be optimistic about keeping him in my life and going out there to visit him, I can't. Its impossible. I cried, and I mean really cried because he left. I didn't think it would effect me this much, but it has. I took our friendship for granted. I always thought there would be so many more times to hang. I didn't REALLY think he would move. I thought he would be just another Midwest kid with big dreams. Well, he is. Only he is the kid that makes his dreams reality. I cried because I didn't get to spend as much time with him as I wanted. His friendship was always there, it may have seemed to drift away at times, but it never truly went away. I cried because I am jealous. I am jealous because he is living his dreams and I'm nowhere close to mine. I cried because I suck at goodbyes or in this case, getting a goodbye text. I handled the in person goodbye just fine, probably because I thought it wasn't really happening.
I have come to realize I take my friendships for granted way to often. Every person I meet in life, I act as if they will be there forever. I should know by now that is not the case. From now on, I will not take a friendship for granted, I can't risk it. I can't stand loosing great people. I've had enough of it. Today showed me I need to change, and I will.
Rockin Out To:
One More Sad Song - All American Rejects
Checkmarks - The Academy Is...
Always Move Fast - Lydia
World is Full of Crashing Bores - Morrissey
A Day Late - Anberlin
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