One of These Days

Like 40 years down the road...I will have a couple boys and a girl.
They will dress like this and their names will be so cute you would think they legit stepped out of the 1920's.

Whoever decided that 1/2 price drinks were a good idea for Sundays was stupid.

Danny O'Donoghue

This man.
I could listen to him sing for hours.

Everyone has that one friend that always pisses you off but no matter how fucking mad you are at them, you can never ACTUALLY be that mad at them for long because as soon as they open their mouth again, you forgive them and love them just the same as always.

#runonsentences

Deep breath.

So after the last two classes of my Schools in American Society, I have figured out that about 10 out of the 13 females hate me.  Why?!  Because I am willing to stand up for myself and say things how I say them.  I am not one to make everything sounds awesome just for the teacher.  I am going to say how I feel about a topic because that is what the class is about.

Example:
Last weeks topic was uniforms.
I was asked by the teacher my opinion on uniforms and if I would have liked them when I was in school.
I expressed how I do not like uniforms because one can not express them self freely.  I went on to explain that in high school I expressed who I was greatly through the choices of clothing that I put on in the morning.  -Band tee, skinny jeans, converse, bracelets, bows in my hair and a sideways belt.  
I went on to say that if I had not been able to dress like that, I honestly think I would be a somewhat of a different person now because I would not have had the freedom to wear that.  Now, thankfully the girl next to me and the boy next to me love me and we all are super open minded and get along well.  They totally agreed with me.
The rest of the girls in the class thought I was some sort of freak because I expressed myself through clothing.  One snot who went to a private school who wore uniforms through 8th grade, then attended a public school 9th and up looked directly at me with a death glare and said "Umm I NEVER expressed or even now express myself through my clothes.  I wore sweats every day because I was comfortable in them. I don't see how you express yourself through your clothes.  Uniforms are a good idea."  And of course her snotty little prissy looking friends next to her were glaring at me and then all smiled at her after her dumb comment.


Example 2:
Today's topic- Public vs Private Education
I was asked by the teacher to say something interesting that I found in my article.  I proceeded to tell the class that I found out that Private schools can reject a student who has special needs.  Private schools do not have special education teachers.  I was then asked how I felt about this.  I explained that I thought it was discrimination and that no child, I don't care what school it is, should not be turned away from education.  I then went on to say I know that Private schools do not get government money to pay special ed teachers but I think that every school should still have special education teachers.
Wellllllll the snot from the previous example, her BFF, of course had a comment for me.  Her comment was that private schools should not have special education teachers because it costs too much money and private schools do not have the kind of money to pay them and special education students should be public schools anyway.  What really pissed me off about this....the girl is a freaking SPECIAL ED major.  I'm so glad that she thinks her future students do not have the right to go to private schools and that they are only meant for public schools.
Tttthhheeeennnn some other girl had to throw her 2 cents in and comment about something else that just pissed me off and made me look like I was stupid for standing up for special education students.

Lets just say, its a good thing Tyler sits next to me and can calm me down cause I was on the edge of my freaking seat.

Okay S, deep breath.

End rant...until Thursday when I'm bound to get ganged up on again!

 

I can thank Miss L for putting me in a Good Charlotte mood.
These boys used to be my life.  I ate, slept and breathed Good Charlotte. Umm ate? that sounds weird. Anyway, my whole existence was based around them for quite some time.
To this day I can not help but smile, dance and sing every word when I hear an old GC song.

This song brings me back to 8th grade track.  The album dropped that year and Cassandra and I were listening to it for the first time on the bus when this song came on and we hear "Shake 3 times you're playing with your self" and we both looked at each other and giggled like a couple of immature 8th grade girls would do.  Ohh to be young again.

Enjoy!

Umm, okay?

Dear Genius,
 Usually when I play a song and click on you, you play a great mix of songs that deal with the artist I chose.  Not sure how ANY of these artists go with Justin Timberlake and/or SexyBack.  Please get back to being awesome like old times.

Sincerely,
Me

Whoo!

First Thursday in about 2 months that I have not had to work and what am I doing?!
Sitting at home watching The Big Bang Theory by myself because my best friend is back home, my roommate is working, and the boy is at a concert.

If you look super close you can see Penny in my glasses! ha!

I have a sweet San Fran cup.  Thank you Target.

Titanic

I think it may be a problem when I:
-can quote about 95% of the movie
-have to have it on to go to sleep every night
-not switch the channel when it is playing on regular tv
and yet never ever tire of it.

Cedar Falls

You never fail me.  I will miss you in a few months!!
I apparently think it is okay to associate myself with these kind of people at times.

Its was a good night when you wake up at 8 am with raccoon eyes, a zit, crazy hair and not hungover after too many drinks from the night before!

Why?

Why is it that boys fall in love with girls so easily?  I used to think it was all the girls fault.  As I grew up, I always thought it was the girls that fell in love to fast, got attached too fast and professed their love before the time was right.  However, living through a few different relationships, I have realized its not always the girls' fault.  Most of the time it is actually the dudes who are being a little to over obsessive.  From what I have noticed, the boys fall in love far too fast.  They also become too clingy after the first date.

Some girls need their girl time.  Some girls need their own time.  Sometimes, girls do not like to be touched and groped in public.  If you are not public about your relationship but know between the two of you that you are together, that should be enough.  There is no need to show the whole world what you already know you are.  Be comfortable in your trust with one another.

Blahhhhhh.  This just drives me nuts.

AAANNNNDDD on another note.  If a girl made out with you once...that does not mean she is going to again.  Drunken mistakes happen.  Do not expect it all the time.  College is a time for fun adventures.  Deal with it.  If you see each other in the bar, say hello...maybe even chill but do not act like you need to get with her.  Chances are, she will realize you are not really as cute as you were when she was Level 10 and see you as a mistake she made and then blame it on the a-a-a-a-a-alcohol.
  

I spy

with my little eye something I'm not fond of.

Super Fun Fact:

I almost bought this tank top this summer at Zumies.  Z and I could have been twinkies.

Its been a good day so far and its only 11:30.
Student teaching interview went amazing.  Its beyond gorgeous outside.  I don't have to close at work tonight.  And I get to see people that I adore later. Yup yup.

Since I've been missing for awhile and you may have forgotten what I look like.  Here are some reminders. ha!

thanks Gabe :)

Science & Faith

"I tried pushing evolution as the obvious conclusion of the start.  But it was for my own amusement saying Love was an illusion of a hopeless heart."


Sometimes I feel as if The Script tapped into my life and then wrote about it.  This song has been on repeat all morning.

I am horrible.

I have been very absent the last few weeks.

With school starting, working and trying to start a new chapter in my life, I have not had time to post anything.
I promise I will get back on track here soon!

Be Jealous

I have an amazingly talented friend.

You Are My Gateway Drug

You pull me down and you fuck me up.
You are my gateway drug you give me a taste for the harder stuff.
-The Spill Canvas


No matter how messed up this situation is I don't want to stop.  I can't.  There is something about him that is intriguing and I want more of it.  Whenever I can get it, I  will take it.  I don't care how long I have to wait.  I don't care how many days I have to sit wondering how to get my next fix.  I will sit.  I will wonder.  I will wait.

What Teachers Make

Perfect.

Sorry for all the teacher/education spam.

Okay, I'm not really sorry because its an important topic and well, I'm a future educator.

Matt Damon's headliner speech at the Save Our Schools March in DC, 7/30/...

Amazing and completely heart felt.

Its people like him that make me excited to teach.

What We Saw at the Save Our Schools Rally in Washington D.C.

Wow. The reporter for this is an absolute moron. I would like to punch her in the face.

Thank god for Matt Damon and his mom for calling her out on her stupidity. I wish this had all of Matts interview cause it gets better.

Story of My Life

It's Kind Of Fucked Up Isn't It?  How All Of A Sudden, Someone Just Wakes Up And Decides To Never Talk To You Again.  No Reason.  No Explanation.  No Words Said.  They Just Leave You Hanging Like You Never Meant Shit To Them, And What Hurts The Most Is How They Made It Look So Easy. 

Saying goodbye is nothing glamourous like the movies make it out to be.

My Future Love

finally contacted me!

Yup yup.  My life is almost complete now.

ha!

Or That Awkward Moment When Old FROM FIRST TO LAST Fans Dig SKRILLEX And Have No Idea It Is Sonny Moore.

In all seriousness.  I really dig Skrillex.  I absolutely hate DubStep because most of it sounds the same and gets reeeeeally annoying after about three songs.  I have always been a fan of Sonny in everything he does because within his tiny body, there is massive talent.  Aaaand Skrillex proves that.     

I can't write anymore.
I can't even write in my real life journal.  It may be because it is my "Europe Journal" and I just can not stand to touch the thing sometimes.
Everything I start to type I end up hating by the end.
Everything seems too personal for BlogSpot.

Only the Good Die Young

"The 27 Club"

Tumblr

The "blog" that people use when they can't come up with their own thoughts.
At least it has a ton of pictures to keep me entertained for hours and make me laugh.

WTF people?!?!  You do NOT do this to Peter Pan.

Is this not the sweetest thing ever?!

Beyoncé - Best Thing I Never Had

Dear Lord do I love Beyonce. She is my girl.

Madjo in Pella

Oh to be 18 and still have summers and not have a care in the world.

This is how L and I would spend a lot of our days way back when.

"Chillin...like a villain" in Pella.

AM Taxi The Mistake Official Video

Yessss!! My favorite AM Taxi song.

Relevant

 

I never thought this would happen.  It did though.  I guess you really can't control who you like.  You also can't control the future and what is right around the corner.  Had you told me a month ago I would like this un-named dude, I would have laughed at you and said you were crazy.  Today, you tell me that and I have a huge smile on my face just proving that I do in fact maybe like him...just a little.  

But in less than a month he will be gone.  1,000+ miles away.  I knew this from the beginning yet it hit me last night that its for real.  This little thing we have going...its got to keep going or end.  

Its funny.  Good things always happen at the wrong time.  

I'm told to be optimistic about this, but its hard.  You wouldn't get it unless you've been there.

Gah.  For real, life is just crazy and hard sometimes all while being amazing.

:)

"Didn't expect to see you so soon!" - W

"Yeah,  I know" - S

"I guess that is what boys do to ya!" - W

"Yep, guess so!" - S

"I don't think I have ever seen you act like this" - L

"What do you mean?" - S

"You're all giddy, giggly and won't stop smiling" - L

"Hahaha, I know.  I love it." - S

"I don't think I have ever seen you act this way.  Like ever.  Even when  it came to J---" - L

"Yep, well you will have that!" - S

I'm kind of reeeeally diggin life right now on so many different levels.

Patrick Stump - "Spotlight (Oh Nostalgia)"

What a cute song and video.

When did Patrick lose weight and become so adorable? I am behind on the times.

Something about Summer

There is something about summer that brings out that little bit of country I have in me.

Can't stop listening to a few select songs...this being one of them.

Kati and Jon were the happiest couple I have ever seen at a wedding.  They are what true love looks like.  They are absolutely adorable.  I've known Katie for over 15 years.  I have watched her grown into such an amazing young lady.  I am so proud of her.  I am also so proud that she found such an amazing guy.  Jon is great and Kati couldn't have found a better man.   Best wishes to the both of them!!

Hmmm someone has some nice legs. ha!

Yupp

I can clean up pretty nice sometimes.
I love weddings because it gives me an excuse to look cute.

why the hell is my camera taking shitty quality all of a sudden?!  UGH

Bam Margera visits Ryan Dunns crash site

I pretty much worshiped these guys when I was 14-16 years old.

So sad.

I can't believe all the hate I have read about Ryan on the internet the past few days. We get it, it is horrible to drink and drive and put everyones life in danger, but that does not mean people have to say such disrespectful things about him. He is someones son. He is someones best friend. Now he is gone and the last thing they need to hear or see is "Serves him right. That what you get for being a jackass"

People just have no heart these days when someone dies.

Bright Eyes circa 2000

Aww 20 year old Conor.


LUMPEN TLVSN (concert) - Bright Eyes..Conor Oberst 2000 1/2 from lumpen on Vimeo.




LUMPEN TLVSN (concert) - Bright Eyes..Conor Oberst 2000 2/2 from lumpen on Vimeo.

I Wanna Talk About Me

The last two people you kissed, what’s something they have in common?   Umm, they are both about my height.

First thing you ate today?   Grapes

Can you name the first initial of the last three people you kissed?   R, L, J

What are you listening to right now?   Toby Keith. haha

Honestly who was the last person to tell you they love you?   The only person that ever tells me that... my mom.

Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?   I haven't gotten them for years.

What are you obsessed with?   Music.  Chapstick.  Lotion.  TOMS.  Criminal Minds.

What’s your favorite show?   Criminal Minds, One Tree Hill, 2 1/2 Men, How I Met Your Mother, Big Bang Theory, Ghost Adventures, Boy Meets World.

If you could visit anywhere, where would you visit?   Africa.

What are you looking forward to?   American Idol Tour,  Bright Eyes...the rest of summer.

Whats the wallpaper on your computer?  A picture of Shafe, me and Kenzie.

Do you know what your name would have been if you were the opposite sex?  Daniel.  ugh gross, so glad I'm a girl.

Do you have any twins in your family?   Negative.

Have you ever gotten burnt by a cigarette?   Oh probably.

Would you lie to the police if it would save your best friend’s life?   Yes.

Have you ever kissed someone that had a tattoo?   That I have.

Who was the last person to text you?   Kenzie  or Matt.  Can't remember

Kiss on the first date?  Or before the first date.

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?   That I have.

Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?   Nope.  Its actually kind of funny at times.

Do you remember the person you first kissed?   Ewww, yes.

Older than you?   No.

Have you ever kissed someone you didn’t like?   That grenade at the bar,  lord only knows Rach and I had our drunk goggles on full blast that night.

Do you regret your last kiss?   Umm, it was a drunken kiss.  So can't really answer that.

What was the person wearing?   Jeans and a shirt.

What time did you get up today? 9:00 sharp

Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?   Yes.

Are you friends with any of your exes?   Yes.

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?   He isn't terrible looking, so uh sure?

What are you doing tonight?  Not a damn thing.

Anyone tell you a secret this week?   Yes.

In the next 5 months what are you looking forward to?   I already answered this.  But I will also add my birthday into this one.

Where do you think your best friend is right now?   All three are either at home or working.

Who else is in the room with you?   Notta soul.

What were you doing at midnight last night?   Getting ready to go to sleep.

Is something bothering you right now?   Just the fact that I have no friends here to do anything with.

Do you prefer to call or text?   Texting unless its my best friends.  I hate awkward silences on phones more than almost anything.

When did you last cry?  For once I can't even remember!

Does it annoy you when someone says they’ll call but never do?  Only if we were supposed to be doing something.

Would you like to put last night on repeat, and live it forever?   No thank you.

Whats the first thing you thought when you woke up this morning?   God do I have weird dreams.

Do you crack your knuckles?   Just my pinky knuckles.

Does anyone call you babe or baby?   Negative.

Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?  hahaha if the dbags at US Cellular hadn't wiped out my phone I would show you great picture.  I have passed out on my bathroom floor and Matt's bathroom floor plenty of times.

Were you single in March of 2008?  I broke up with Jon in March of 2008.

A Year Ago

I had an older boyfriend who was immature at times.
I had a great group of friends.
I had shorter hair with bangs.
I was super blonde.
I was super naive.
I was livin the life.

This year....

I have no boyfriend.

I have the best friends a girl could ask for.

I have longer hair and no bangs.

I'm not so blonde.

I am NOT naive. 

I am more than just livin the life... I'm lovin the life too.

Lazy Song - Bruno Mars - ASL

Boy, do I adore this kid.

She thinks it is weird that I am not 'crushing' on anyone right now.
I think it is weird that people always feel the need to be crushing on someone.

She thinks it is weird that I don't want to be set up.
I think its weird that at age 22 people think I need to be set up.

She thinks it is weird that I wont forgive him and be friends with him.
I think it is weird that I should give someone a million passes.

She thinks it is weird that I still deep down inside want to be friends with him after the way he treated me.
I think it is weird that I am no longer his friend after supporting him and his adventures for 5 1/2 years.

She thinks it is weird that I wont tell him how I really feel about him.
I think it is weird to tell him because I'm the one that messed up in our relationship.

She thinks I'm the greatest.
I think she is too.

Conor Oberst (1) : Water/Lumberjack Records (Saddle Creek DVD)

Someone buy my this DVD!!!