Your Friends Are Gone.

I have come to realize that I have the tendency to loose friends faster then most people can spell Mississippi. I make the best friends ever, then they just leave. I am left to watch them go. I can't do anything about it either. One is gone because drugs sucked her too far under another is gone because of college. One is gone because he moved to the other side of the country, one is gone because of a girl. The list goes on forever. Sometimes I wish the word friend didn't exist. Acquaintances is a much better word. For that is all I have now. Acquaintances. For with aquaintances, you don't have to put your trust in them, you don't have to confide in them, you won't get hurt by them, for you will not seem them as often. The people I once called "friends" are that no longer. I see them maybe once a month if I am the luckiest girl in the world. One of my even so-called best friends doesn't seem to ever want to do things with me. The last time I checked best friends hang out more then four times in one summer. Her and I, we will soon become acquaintances, I can feel it. I guess I have and always will have one steady friend, thank god for her. Maybe its me. I mean I know I don't let people into my life that much, but it is because of things in the past that make me put up that wall. Does that mean that friends should leave and we should never talk again? I would like to think not, but I'm starting to think that is the case.